I have never looked so much forward to a vacation as I am this one to Scotland. I am so exhausted from work and school that I just can’t wait. I almost wish I had an extra couple of days before I left to catch up on sleep so that I could fully enjoy the entire trip to Scotland.
I have been working myself to the bone. I really need to re-evaluate my priorities. I am working full-time as a contracted employee to the Pentagon. I then work part-time as a barista at my church’s café. I also am going to Grad School full-time. On top of all that I am trying to stay involved with church and my friends. Something needs to go and I have a feeling it may be school.
I started going for my MBA for all the wrong reasons anyway and I don’t really see where I’ll ever use it. Besides stressing over classes, I am wracking up more debt that if I don’t ever use it, will just follow me for another good 10 years. YEACH!!!
For right now I just look forward to the fact that I am in the last week of my corporate finance class and then I get a 7 week break from any kind of classes. I am only taking half a semester this time so that I do not have to worry about having to find the time while in Scotland to do homework. How not fun would that be. I work at the café up to the 31st of Aug. Then I am tentatively going to Philly for Labor Day weekend. Then I have three days at the Pentagon then I am gone to SCOTLAND FOR AWHILE!!!!!!!
Who knows maybe I won’t come back!!! I’ll just find a nice little thatched cottage up in the highlands to hide away in for the rest of my life. Wouldn’t that be nice, well first find a husband to take there with me J!
Monday, August 21, 2006
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Missions
So my church just finished a series of sermons/conference focusing on Missions. It is something they do every year with the slogan being “Pray, Give, Go”. The last topic was risks and risk taking. Pastor Josh Karrer put before the church that faith is basically risk. We were challenged to follow that Gut-feeling God put in us no matter what the risk. If you don’t step out in faith/risk nothing would ever get done.
So I have decided it is time to start praying and asking for prayer regarding a decision I must make. The job that I am in is a one year contract with options to stay if I prove to be valuable. Now when my contract comes up for bid next fall, I think I am going to take a month off and spend it in Scotland. Recently a young married couple left the states for Edinburgh to start an amazing ministry.
Scotland has always been my heart and passion as well as “young” people. So Lord willing and through much prayer over the next year, I am hoping to be able to take that month and go to Edinburgh and hopefully get the opportunity to work with this couple and the others there.
Please pray:
That God will provide direction
That I will honestly seek His direction
That when the time is right God will open the hearts of my bosses to grant me this time
For the Schmidgall’s in Edinburgh
For Eikon
So I have decided it is time to start praying and asking for prayer regarding a decision I must make. The job that I am in is a one year contract with options to stay if I prove to be valuable. Now when my contract comes up for bid next fall, I think I am going to take a month off and spend it in Scotland. Recently a young married couple left the states for Edinburgh to start an amazing ministry.
Scotland has always been my heart and passion as well as “young” people. So Lord willing and through much prayer over the next year, I am hoping to be able to take that month and go to Edinburgh and hopefully get the opportunity to work with this couple and the others there.
Please pray:
That God will provide direction
That I will honestly seek His direction
That when the time is right God will open the hearts of my bosses to grant me this time
For the Schmidgall’s in Edinburgh
For Eikon
“Little Black Book”
So I realized that I am constantly saying that I will pray for people and I realize that I write these prayer requests down on many different slips of paper. As my dearest friend Beth can attest to, in planning for her wedding, slips get lost and misplaced. So on that thought process I decided to buy a “little black book” that I could carry around with me every where to write down prayer requests as I receive them. Now I only bought it just last night but I have started transferring slips into it. I plan to also make sure to keep it with me at work so that when there is a down time I can start praying through the list. This will be a good thing for me to help me to stay in constant conversation with my Lord and Savior.
Monday, August 14, 2006
Sunday, August 13, 2006
I Exchange...
My weariness for His strength,
My weakness for His power,
My darkness fo rHis light,
My problems for His solutions,
My burdens for His freedom,
My frustrations for His peace,
My turmoil for His calm,
My hopes for His promises,
My afflictions for His balm of comfort,
My questions for His answers,
My confusion for His knowledge,
My doubt for His assurance,
My nothingness for His awesomeness,
The temporal for the eternal,
And the impossible for the possible!
My weakness for His power,
My darkness fo rHis light,
My problems for His solutions,
My burdens for His freedom,
My frustrations for His peace,
My turmoil for His calm,
My hopes for His promises,
My afflictions for His balm of comfort,
My questions for His answers,
My confusion for His knowledge,
My doubt for His assurance,
My nothingness for His awesomeness,
The temporal for the eternal,
And the impossible for the possible!
Friday, August 11, 2006
FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I almost got mugged tonight!!! What the heck is with me and this city?!?!?!?
So I ran to 7-eleven, because I was having a pity party for myself and no pity party is complete with out the gratuitous pint of ice cream. As I was walking home, mind you my apartment building is one block from the store, I hear this basketball bouncing across the street and behind me. I pay no attention cause when its bouncing you know where the kids are. Well then it stops bouncing. ALL TOGETHER, nothing, I hear no voices nothing!!! I suspected something when it stopped but then when it didn't start back up at all I was VERY suspicious. With good cause, having been mugged once I have no desire to be mugged again. If it means I am somewhat rude and "racial" then so be it, I am only that way at night!! Well the next thing I know I hear someone trip behind me and sure enough I turned around and there is this little maybe 10 or 11 year old sneaking up on me. He stopped and pretended to do, i don't know what when I turned around but I knew, I AM NOT STUPID!!! SO i sped up and turned into my building. As I am opening the door to go in I turn one more time and this kid crosses the street to join up with his two buddies as they yell at me "BITCH". Why am I the bitch when they are the ones who were going to try and mug me. Why am I the one who suffers the indignation of this insult when they are stupid little kids who should know better than to attack people or call people rude names.
WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TOO!!!???!!!??? GOD PLEASE TAKE ME HOME!!!! BY THE WAY THANK YOU FOR WATCHING OUT FOR ME!!!!!!!! I know that only You and You alone gave me the keen sense of hearing tonight and the protective arms around me. Thank you!!!!
So I ran to 7-eleven, because I was having a pity party for myself and no pity party is complete with out the gratuitous pint of ice cream. As I was walking home, mind you my apartment building is one block from the store, I hear this basketball bouncing across the street and behind me. I pay no attention cause when its bouncing you know where the kids are. Well then it stops bouncing. ALL TOGETHER, nothing, I hear no voices nothing!!! I suspected something when it stopped but then when it didn't start back up at all I was VERY suspicious. With good cause, having been mugged once I have no desire to be mugged again. If it means I am somewhat rude and "racial" then so be it, I am only that way at night!! Well the next thing I know I hear someone trip behind me and sure enough I turned around and there is this little maybe 10 or 11 year old sneaking up on me. He stopped and pretended to do, i don't know what when I turned around but I knew, I AM NOT STUPID!!! SO i sped up and turned into my building. As I am opening the door to go in I turn one more time and this kid crosses the street to join up with his two buddies as they yell at me "BITCH". Why am I the bitch when they are the ones who were going to try and mug me. Why am I the one who suffers the indignation of this insult when they are stupid little kids who should know better than to attack people or call people rude names.
WHAT IS THIS WORLD COMING TOO!!!???!!!??? GOD PLEASE TAKE ME HOME!!!! BY THE WAY THANK YOU FOR WATCHING OUT FOR ME!!!!!!!! I know that only You and You alone gave me the keen sense of hearing tonight and the protective arms around me. Thank you!!!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Great Essay by Joel Stein
I really enjoyed this.
MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST MAKE MEL HAPPY
Attacking anti-Semitism hasn't got us far in 3,000 years. It's time for some changes.
Most times, when someone spouts off about how awful the Jews are, I blow it off as ignorance. If the guy just got to know us, he would totally dig us. We're funny and warm and smart and totally self-effacing. We send Ben Stiller to Iran for a few weeks, Mahmoud Ahmadinejad will be opening up Noah's bagel shops in all the strip malls in Tehran. The only problem is that with just 0.02% of the world's population, we can't do nearly as many personal appearances as we'd like. That's why we took over the media.
But Mel Gibson knows us--personally. He's been in Hollywood for more than 20 years, virtually surrounded by Jews. If Mel doesn't like us, maybe it's finally time to stop blaming everyone else for the bigotry and scapegoating and start to look at ourselves. As the saying goes, if people hate you for 1,000 years, you can blame them, if you're persecuted for 2,000 years, maybe you're unlucky; but if they still want to kill you after 3,000 years, you have to ask yourself if you're doing something wrong.
So we Jews are going to have to make some slight adjustments to get on the world's good side. No more smiting our enslavers with locusts or refusing to convert during Inquisitions or giving ourselves Oscars for Holocaust documentaries. We've got to up our likability, get on people's good sides.
The first thing we have to do is drop the Chosen Peopletm marketing bit. It's not working. Not only is it not scaring people off as it was designed to do, but it comes off as sort of arrogant. I'm suggesting we change our official slogan to Just One of the Guystm or the People Who Believe in Most of Your Bibletm or even the People Who, if History is a Guide, Are Not Among God's Favoritestm. We'll need to get Karl Rove involved.
You know how a lot of Jewish performers change their names so they don't offend anyone with all that Jewishness? Emmanuel Goldberg changed his name to Edward G. Robinson, and Jonathan Leibowitz threw us all off the trail with Jon Stewart. How about if all the rest of hte Jews do it too? I'm considering Joe Crockett. I also like the sound of Johnny Slayer. Plus, coming up with 14 million new names will be a kind of WPA project for all the Jewish writers. Because we have to back off the controlling-the-media thing a tad.
We could do ourselves a lot of good by stopping our whole Protocols of the Elders of Zion plan. It's been more than 100 years since the book has been out, and we have yet to come close to our goal of (I'm using the Iranian translation here) "extracting from the hands of the Lord many stars and galaxies." In fact, we have yet to extract one single star or glalaxy. Let's drop it! One of our methods of controlling the universe according to the book, was to get people hooked on alcohol. And look how that backfired last week.
Also, we need to stop killing other people's messiahs. O.K., it was actually the Romans who killed Jesus, but we were there. And even if it had been us, you'd think the Catholics would thanks us, since otherwise they'd have churches today full of statues of a bald old guy clutching his heart in hospice care, and who's showing up every Sunday for that? But still, it's better if we stay far away from any messiahs. Even if a guy clearly isn't the Messiah but is just saying he is--walk away. There's nothing to gain there.
Until Gibson told his arresting officers that "the Jews are responsible for all the wars in the world," I didn't realize that was our thing. If it is, let's drop it. I would have thought that the guy who made Braveheart, The Patriot, Gallipoli and When We Were Soldiers and has directed some of the most violent, angry scenes in cinema would love war. But I guess he doesn't.
And most of all, we have to stop this finger wagging at Gibson. Endeavor agent Ari Emanuels has written that no studio would work with him anymore. Bad call. We don't want to get in a battle here. In a popularity contest between Mel Gibson and Jews, it doesn't look so good for hte Jews. Better we laugh this off, maybe respond with a jibe at the Australians, like how they make simplistic, ovelry fruit-forward red wines. Then we all have a chuckle and subtle suggest another dead language for him to teach himself for his next movie. We've got to give the guy as much busywork as possible.
TIME Magazine, August 14th 2006, Page 78
MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST MAKE MEL HAPPY
Attacking anti-Semitism hasn't got us far in 3,000 years. It's time for some changes.
Most times, when someone spouts off about how awful the Jews are, I blow it off as ignorance. If the guy just got to know us, he would totally dig us. We're funny and warm and smart and totally self-effacing. We send Ben Stiller to Iran for a few weeks, Mahmoud Ahmadinejad will be opening up Noah's bagel shops in all the strip malls in Tehran. The only problem is that with just 0.02% of the world's population, we can't do nearly as many personal appearances as we'd like. That's why we took over the media.
But Mel Gibson knows us--personally. He's been in Hollywood for more than 20 years, virtually surrounded by Jews. If Mel doesn't like us, maybe it's finally time to stop blaming everyone else for the bigotry and scapegoating and start to look at ourselves. As the saying goes, if people hate you for 1,000 years, you can blame them, if you're persecuted for 2,000 years, maybe you're unlucky; but if they still want to kill you after 3,000 years, you have to ask yourself if you're doing something wrong.
So we Jews are going to have to make some slight adjustments to get on the world's good side. No more smiting our enslavers with locusts or refusing to convert during Inquisitions or giving ourselves Oscars for Holocaust documentaries. We've got to up our likability, get on people's good sides.
The first thing we have to do is drop the Chosen Peopletm marketing bit. It's not working. Not only is it not scaring people off as it was designed to do, but it comes off as sort of arrogant. I'm suggesting we change our official slogan to Just One of the Guystm or the People Who Believe in Most of Your Bibletm or even the People Who, if History is a Guide, Are Not Among God's Favoritestm. We'll need to get Karl Rove involved.
You know how a lot of Jewish performers change their names so they don't offend anyone with all that Jewishness? Emmanuel Goldberg changed his name to Edward G. Robinson, and Jonathan Leibowitz threw us all off the trail with Jon Stewart. How about if all the rest of hte Jews do it too? I'm considering Joe Crockett. I also like the sound of Johnny Slayer. Plus, coming up with 14 million new names will be a kind of WPA project for all the Jewish writers. Because we have to back off the controlling-the-media thing a tad.
We could do ourselves a lot of good by stopping our whole Protocols of the Elders of Zion plan. It's been more than 100 years since the book has been out, and we have yet to come close to our goal of (I'm using the Iranian translation here) "extracting from the hands of the Lord many stars and galaxies." In fact, we have yet to extract one single star or glalaxy. Let's drop it! One of our methods of controlling the universe according to the book, was to get people hooked on alcohol. And look how that backfired last week.
Also, we need to stop killing other people's messiahs. O.K., it was actually the Romans who killed Jesus, but we were there. And even if it had been us, you'd think the Catholics would thanks us, since otherwise they'd have churches today full of statues of a bald old guy clutching his heart in hospice care, and who's showing up every Sunday for that? But still, it's better if we stay far away from any messiahs. Even if a guy clearly isn't the Messiah but is just saying he is--walk away. There's nothing to gain there.
Until Gibson told his arresting officers that "the Jews are responsible for all the wars in the world," I didn't realize that was our thing. If it is, let's drop it. I would have thought that the guy who made Braveheart, The Patriot, Gallipoli and When We Were Soldiers and has directed some of the most violent, angry scenes in cinema would love war. But I guess he doesn't.
And most of all, we have to stop this finger wagging at Gibson. Endeavor agent Ari Emanuels has written that no studio would work with him anymore. Bad call. We don't want to get in a battle here. In a popularity contest between Mel Gibson and Jews, it doesn't look so good for hte Jews. Better we laugh this off, maybe respond with a jibe at the Australians, like how they make simplistic, ovelry fruit-forward red wines. Then we all have a chuckle and subtle suggest another dead language for him to teach himself for his next movie. We've got to give the guy as much busywork as possible.
TIME Magazine, August 14th 2006, Page 78
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
SOMEDAY!!!!
I want to own a car just like this. I want to be able to get it and fix it up and listen to it purr. They really just don't make cars this way anymore.
Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong time period. Oh well what do I know. God knows best right :-).
I am utterly exhausted and need major prayer. I am stuck in a class for grad school right now, that I can't drop and I don't understand whatsoever. No one has ever called me a financial mastermind for a very good reason...I am most definitely not one. :-)
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Why can't we all just stay kids???
Why can't we all just stay kids??? Why does the world have to change? Why does life have to get harder and harder to live? Why are children the only ones able to see the world as nothing but an adventure? Why are children the only ones that truly believe that God can do everything and anything? Why do we have to become so jaded and marred by the world and what it expects and wants along our growing up that we lose all sense of wonder and belief? Why do people have to move on in life? Why do we have to grow up?
I was never happier than when I was a child and my only goal in life was to dream about what I could be and have fun. I wish that I could go back to that time when I dreamed of being an astronaut and had no reason to believe it couldn't happen. I wish that I could go back to the freedom of being a child and getting to run about in the woods and play with not a care in the world. I wish that I could go back to being a child where love is what our parents give us and what we feel for our siblings, our kittens, our bicycles, our backyards, our crayons, our dolls, our hamsters, our wildflowers, our dogs, our play-time, and our general enjoyment of life, even though we don't actually understand what life is.
I was never happier than when I was a child and my only goal in life was to dream about what I could be and have fun. I wish that I could go back to that time when I dreamed of being an astronaut and had no reason to believe it couldn't happen. I wish that I could go back to the freedom of being a child and getting to run about in the woods and play with not a care in the world. I wish that I could go back to being a child where love is what our parents give us and what we feel for our siblings, our kittens, our bicycles, our backyards, our crayons, our dolls, our hamsters, our wildflowers, our dogs, our play-time, and our general enjoyment of life, even though we don't actually understand what life is.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Dress rehearsal
Friday night was the dress rehearsal. We got the church decorated that afternoon, besides having to deal with the nusiance of a drum kit the church they rented refused to move, everything went off without a hitch. The church looked beautiful and the greenery was lush.
We ran through the wedding three times, once very quickly, once full scale and another again a quickie. We got out of there by 6pm and headed to Chips for the rehearsal dinner. It was very good and very interesting. It is basically a restuarant that makes a conglomeration of American food. I had a ribeye steak with salad, mashed potatoes and broccoli. It was excellent.
After that the girls all headed back to Beth's place for another quick little shower with all the bridesmaids. It was very sweet and well put together by Beth's sister Jenny. That lasted until approximately 10ish. Then Beth and I followed two of the bridesmaid's to their hotel in order to get them checked in and then headed home. Beth jumped in the shower and then hopped into bed. She fell dead asleep while I was giving her a massage around midnight and slept like a log until 6:30am. It was very good for her. I was very worried that she wouldn't be able to sleep the night before her wedding, so I basically begged God all night that she would sleep well and be refreshed the next day.
Here are some pics from the decorating, rehearsal, dinner, and the bridesmaid's shower.
First a better picture of the happy couple, now Luke and Elizabeth Strahan (pronounced stran)
Okay so I'll have to post more pics later cause the heat is making the internet running excessively slow. Sorry, keep posted though
We ran through the wedding three times, once very quickly, once full scale and another again a quickie. We got out of there by 6pm and headed to Chips for the rehearsal dinner. It was very good and very interesting. It is basically a restuarant that makes a conglomeration of American food. I had a ribeye steak with salad, mashed potatoes and broccoli. It was excellent.
After that the girls all headed back to Beth's place for another quick little shower with all the bridesmaids. It was very sweet and well put together by Beth's sister Jenny. That lasted until approximately 10ish. Then Beth and I followed two of the bridesmaid's to their hotel in order to get them checked in and then headed home. Beth jumped in the shower and then hopped into bed. She fell dead asleep while I was giving her a massage around midnight and slept like a log until 6:30am. It was very good for her. I was very worried that she wouldn't be able to sleep the night before her wedding, so I basically begged God all night that she would sleep well and be refreshed the next day.
Here are some pics from the decorating, rehearsal, dinner, and the bridesmaid's shower.
First a better picture of the happy couple, now Luke and Elizabeth Strahan (pronounced stran)
Okay so I'll have to post more pics later cause the heat is making the internet running excessively slow. Sorry, keep posted thoughFriday, July 28, 2006
my first mani
So I got my very first manicure today. It was really nice, I think that it is something I may have to treat myself to more often.
So anyway, is it possible to be ecstatic out of your mind and yet sad at heart at the same time? I found out that another of my friends is pregnant and I just...well I guess with all the wedding stuff going on and the lack of sleep it overwhelmed me. I just wish that I could find that same happiness that so many of my friends have been blessed to find. I get frustrated sometimes that I am doing something wrong or that something is wrong with me but...I don't know. I keep telling myself that I am God's child and He has promised to give me everything that is good and glorifying to Him. I also know that the desires of my heart, if I am following Him, are the desires which He has placed in me. I guess I am just an extremely impatient person. I want it now and am struggling with the continuing waiting game.
My other dilemma is that I think I make myself too much of a friend to guys that they just never move to the next step because I am just not a threat and can be a friend. It's frustrating!! That may or may not be true but it seems to me that it is true. The actual harder thing is when my friends guys tell me that I am great and they don't know why someone hasn't snatched me up yet. I know they mean it as a compliment but it actually hurts. Oh well such is life.
I dream of a day when I can find the happiness that so many others have found, when I can serve and love someone, that I can start a family and new life with. I look forward to the next great adventure in life where I can grow with someone and together in our relationship with God. Someday I know it will happen, I know that God promises that and I will continue to cling to that promise and pray in faith for it to happen. (how does one pray in faith? I am really not sure but I will do my best)
So anyway, is it possible to be ecstatic out of your mind and yet sad at heart at the same time? I found out that another of my friends is pregnant and I just...well I guess with all the wedding stuff going on and the lack of sleep it overwhelmed me. I just wish that I could find that same happiness that so many of my friends have been blessed to find. I get frustrated sometimes that I am doing something wrong or that something is wrong with me but...I don't know. I keep telling myself that I am God's child and He has promised to give me everything that is good and glorifying to Him. I also know that the desires of my heart, if I am following Him, are the desires which He has placed in me. I guess I am just an extremely impatient person. I want it now and am struggling with the continuing waiting game.
My other dilemma is that I think I make myself too much of a friend to guys that they just never move to the next step because I am just not a threat and can be a friend. It's frustrating!! That may or may not be true but it seems to me that it is true. The actual harder thing is when my friends guys tell me that I am great and they don't know why someone hasn't snatched me up yet. I know they mean it as a compliment but it actually hurts. Oh well such is life.
I dream of a day when I can find the happiness that so many others have found, when I can serve and love someone, that I can start a family and new life with. I look forward to the next great adventure in life where I can grow with someone and together in our relationship with God. Someday I know it will happen, I know that God promises that and I will continue to cling to that promise and pray in faith for it to happen. (how does one pray in faith? I am really not sure but I will do my best)
Thursday, July 27, 2006
IOWA Con't again...
Wednesday was my day! I went to Beth's future-mother-in-law's house to help with wedding decorations. Then I ran to Walmart and Target to run some errands for Beth. I also got some pics printed from the previous days. Then it was home to try and get a nap. I couldn't really sleep though but just spent some time alone and caught up on relaxing and homework. Beth and company got home around 8pm. It was a pretty uneventful yet completely exhausting day for all of us.
Beth spent the day with her Mum, hunting flowers for, aisle runners, thank you gifts that she couldn't find and just generally exhausting herself. She was supposed to be relaxing and then taking a nap in the afternoon.
Today, now that I am finally caught up with what's going on, started early and turned out a heck of a lot busier than it originally was supposed to be. I took Beth and her Mum for mani's and pedi's at 9am and on the way we got word from her sister. Here Jenny's car had broken down and she was stuck in Des Moines. So off I went to Des Moines to pick her up. Got back at 10:30am. We stopped at the nail place to see how they were doing and they weren't done yet. Then as we are sitting there waiting we realize that we need to get Jenny to the apartment for her haircut. So I rush her back and then run back to pick up Beth and her Mum and also run to the scrapbook store for some more supplies.
After we finally got out of there we ran to Ashley's to pick up flower girl baskets and then headed back to the house. I fixed lunch for Beth, Jenny and I and then Beth was off with Luke and her parents to get the wedding certificate. Jenny and I headed out at 1:45pm for me to get a hair cut and run more errands. We all got back to the apartment between 4:30 and 5 pm. We just kinda worked on some things and then I fixed dinner. Luke came over, we all ate and then they left to conquer the hotel because the other two bridesmaids weren't going to make it tonight due to weather. When they got back it was back to the grindstone again, printing programs and cutting them up. And that has caught you up to what we are doing right now. More later, good night all!!!
Beth spent the day with her Mum, hunting flowers for, aisle runners, thank you gifts that she couldn't find and just generally exhausting herself. She was supposed to be relaxing and then taking a nap in the afternoon.
Today, now that I am finally caught up with what's going on, started early and turned out a heck of a lot busier than it originally was supposed to be. I took Beth and her Mum for mani's and pedi's at 9am and on the way we got word from her sister. Here Jenny's car had broken down and she was stuck in Des Moines. So off I went to Des Moines to pick her up. Got back at 10:30am. We stopped at the nail place to see how they were doing and they weren't done yet. Then as we are sitting there waiting we realize that we need to get Jenny to the apartment for her haircut. So I rush her back and then run back to pick up Beth and her Mum and also run to the scrapbook store for some more supplies.
After we finally got out of there we ran to Ashley's to pick up flower girl baskets and then headed back to the house. I fixed lunch for Beth, Jenny and I and then Beth was off with Luke and her parents to get the wedding certificate. Jenny and I headed out at 1:45pm for me to get a hair cut and run more errands. We all got back to the apartment between 4:30 and 5 pm. We just kinda worked on some things and then I fixed dinner. Luke came over, we all ate and then they left to conquer the hotel because the other two bridesmaids weren't going to make it tonight due to weather. When they got back it was back to the grindstone again, printing programs and cutting them up. And that has caught you up to what we are doing right now. More later, good night all!!!
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
My Friend Shrig and her Aunt Dori
Please pray with me as my friend I spoke about in an earlier post lost her Aunt Dori, who is like a Mother to her on Tuesday the 25th of July. My heart is utterly breaking for her and wishing that there was something that I could say and do. Please please pray as this is a very hard time for her and her brother. This is the fourth family member they have lost in under a year. Thank you and I LOVE YOU SHRIG!!!!
Iowa con't...
So it is now Wednesday, two and a half days and counting till the wedding. I have been eating salads and chicken all week. I can't wait for the reception when I can have something sweet.
So, Sunday, I went to Beth and Luke's church. Two people as I entered with her asked me if I was her mother!!!! DO I REALLY LOOK THAT OLD!?!?!?! How depressing. It was a great church though. They meet in the gymnasium of a local Christian school. The sermon was great, did I mention that Luke's dad is the Pastor and that Luke leads the worship? So anyway, the sermon was about how we have our own personal lie detector the Holy Spirit, according to 1 John. It was great though I had a bit of a hard time focusing cause I was exhausted. After church they had a potluck dinner for a couple in the church who where leaving. It was very good. Then Beth and I headed back to the apartment to prepare for our day of just us. Oh yeah, I had scheduled massages and hand massages for the two of us at a spa, only to find out Sunday morning while checking for directions that I had gotten the cities wrong. I had thought the place said it was in Des Moines when it was actually in Iowa City. That is a 2 hour drive and neither of us were up for that. So we headed to the mall to see about going to a nail place and getting mani's and pedi's.
We got sort of lost on the way to the mall but not so bad that we could recover and turn around. When we finally got to the mall, we went to payless to exchange my shoes for my dress and then we hit up Vicky's and Dillard's. Then we grabbed a bite to eat and realized that the mall was closing around us. To say none the least this was very frustrating. I had really wanted to do this for her and had failed miserably. So instead we went to Barnes and Nobles and did a little shopping and reading and enjoyed reminiscing about the past and the fun things we had done. It was great!!! Barnes and Noble is our place. We hung out there till almost nine and then hit Walmart with some errands and headed home. I think we finally got to bed around 11 or 12 pm.
Monday was spent doing errands. I went grocery shopping while Beth tried to go into work, however she realized she just couldn't pay attention to what she needed to be doing. So she ended up taking the whole week off. Beth's parents stopped by that evening and her Mum went to get her hair cut. It looks really nice and she is excited about the wedding. She made Beth and Luke this very beautiful quilt. Yes you heard me right, her Mother made the quilt. It is very pretty and she did an excellent job. I think we got to bed around the same time that night as well.
Tuesday was another errand day. Beth stopped by work to show Valarie the ropes and then we were on our way to more errands. That afternoon we went out to Beth's Grandparents to see her Mum's wedding clothes and her sister Jenny came in. She drove all the way from Grand Rapids, MI to Ankeny, IA without any air conditioning. All I got to say is got some respect for that girl. Beth and I left there around 4pm to run back to the apartment with a quick stop at the tanner's, to get ready for her "other" bridal shower that evening.
The bridal shower was fabulous. Her friends Linda and Valarie put it on and did such a marvelous job. They decorated with live wildflowers cut from her yard and made the kitchen into and English tea garden. It was absolutely lovely. I'll add pictures and more later. I really need to take a nap now.
So, Sunday, I went to Beth and Luke's church. Two people as I entered with her asked me if I was her mother!!!! DO I REALLY LOOK THAT OLD!?!?!?! How depressing. It was a great church though. They meet in the gymnasium of a local Christian school. The sermon was great, did I mention that Luke's dad is the Pastor and that Luke leads the worship? So anyway, the sermon was about how we have our own personal lie detector the Holy Spirit, according to 1 John. It was great though I had a bit of a hard time focusing cause I was exhausted. After church they had a potluck dinner for a couple in the church who where leaving. It was very good. Then Beth and I headed back to the apartment to prepare for our day of just us. Oh yeah, I had scheduled massages and hand massages for the two of us at a spa, only to find out Sunday morning while checking for directions that I had gotten the cities wrong. I had thought the place said it was in Des Moines when it was actually in Iowa City. That is a 2 hour drive and neither of us were up for that. So we headed to the mall to see about going to a nail place and getting mani's and pedi's.
We got sort of lost on the way to the mall but not so bad that we could recover and turn around. When we finally got to the mall, we went to payless to exchange my shoes for my dress and then we hit up Vicky's and Dillard's. Then we grabbed a bite to eat and realized that the mall was closing around us. To say none the least this was very frustrating. I had really wanted to do this for her and had failed miserably. So instead we went to Barnes and Nobles and did a little shopping and reading and enjoyed reminiscing about the past and the fun things we had done. It was great!!! Barnes and Noble is our place. We hung out there till almost nine and then hit Walmart with some errands and headed home. I think we finally got to bed around 11 or 12 pm.
Monday was spent doing errands. I went grocery shopping while Beth tried to go into work, however she realized she just couldn't pay attention to what she needed to be doing. So she ended up taking the whole week off. Beth's parents stopped by that evening and her Mum went to get her hair cut. It looks really nice and she is excited about the wedding. She made Beth and Luke this very beautiful quilt. Yes you heard me right, her Mother made the quilt. It is very pretty and she did an excellent job. I think we got to bed around the same time that night as well.
Tuesday was another errand day. Beth stopped by work to show Valarie the ropes and then we were on our way to more errands. That afternoon we went out to Beth's Grandparents to see her Mum's wedding clothes and her sister Jenny came in. She drove all the way from Grand Rapids, MI to Ankeny, IA without any air conditioning. All I got to say is got some respect for that girl. Beth and I left there around 4pm to run back to the apartment with a quick stop at the tanner's, to get ready for her "other" bridal shower that evening.
The bridal shower was fabulous. Her friends Linda and Valarie put it on and did such a marvelous job. They decorated with live wildflowers cut from her yard and made the kitchen into and English tea garden. It was absolutely lovely. I'll add pictures and more later. I really need to take a nap now.
Monday, July 24, 2006
Iowa
IOWA IS VERY FLAT!!!!
So I made it to Iowa with very little incident. I left my apartment at 5:15 am Sat. morning and got to the airport by 5:45am. I have never seen DCA so busy in my entire life. I think I have flown out of there at least 3 times and this was the first time I actually had to stand in line for a good half an hour. People were flippin out left and right about not catching their flights and all I could do was laugh because they were the ones who showed up with a half an hour to spare. What idiots!!!
So anyway, I made it onto the plane to find that I was sitting right next to a young mother with an 11month old little girl. My first thought was great, I'm exhausted and this child will probably scream the whole time. Then that changed because the little girl could I guess sense my instinctive love of children and wanted to play. So for the first 2 hour portion of my trip I helped take some of the stress off the mom by playing with her little girl. She never cried once. It was great.
Then when I got to Memphis for the switch I ended up, as usual, on this little "hop, skip and jumper." Now mind you the whole reason for this trip is to fly to Iowa and be with my best friend as she prepares for her finals days till the wedding, I am one of the bridesmaids, and I have my dress with me. The previous plane this had not been a problem. As I am getting on the puddle-jumper they tell me that I have to put the dress below with all the other baggage. I told them, unless you can swear to me on pain of death that nothing will happen to this dress it stays with me!!! Well there actually isn't much pain of death that I can enforce and they overrode me. However as I was finally boarding the flight attendant felt sorry for me and offered to hang it with his stuff as he feared that they couldn't keep their promise. I was very grateful and raced back to grab it before it ended up below with everything else. CRISIS AVERTED!
I made it to Des Moines with no other incidents picked up my car and headed to Ankeny. The associate for Budget was very helpful and gave me directions that helped me avoid all the construction in Des Moines but didn't take me too far off the beaten path that I would get myself completely lost trying to get to Beth's house. I reached my final destination around 11:15 am. Beth and her Grandma were cleaning the apartment and having fun. I joined in and then finally met the man who has made my Beth the most happiest woman on the face of this planet.
He truly is the man that completes her. I am so happy I constantly feel like I am in a state of weepiness. So anyway, we spent the rest of Saturday, running a few errands and then headed to her Grandma's to do laundry. It was a very nice relaxing time and watching Beth interact with her Grandmother is always a treat.
Okay that's it for tonight, I am exhausted and I have to start early tomorrow with more running around. I am the luckiest person in the world!!!!!
So I made it to Iowa with very little incident. I left my apartment at 5:15 am Sat. morning and got to the airport by 5:45am. I have never seen DCA so busy in my entire life. I think I have flown out of there at least 3 times and this was the first time I actually had to stand in line for a good half an hour. People were flippin out left and right about not catching their flights and all I could do was laugh because they were the ones who showed up with a half an hour to spare. What idiots!!!
So anyway, I made it onto the plane to find that I was sitting right next to a young mother with an 11month old little girl. My first thought was great, I'm exhausted and this child will probably scream the whole time. Then that changed because the little girl could I guess sense my instinctive love of children and wanted to play. So for the first 2 hour portion of my trip I helped take some of the stress off the mom by playing with her little girl. She never cried once. It was great.
Then when I got to Memphis for the switch I ended up, as usual, on this little "hop, skip and jumper." Now mind you the whole reason for this trip is to fly to Iowa and be with my best friend as she prepares for her finals days till the wedding, I am one of the bridesmaids, and I have my dress with me. The previous plane this had not been a problem. As I am getting on the puddle-jumper they tell me that I have to put the dress below with all the other baggage. I told them, unless you can swear to me on pain of death that nothing will happen to this dress it stays with me!!! Well there actually isn't much pain of death that I can enforce and they overrode me. However as I was finally boarding the flight attendant felt sorry for me and offered to hang it with his stuff as he feared that they couldn't keep their promise. I was very grateful and raced back to grab it before it ended up below with everything else. CRISIS AVERTED!
I made it to Des Moines with no other incidents picked up my car and headed to Ankeny. The associate for Budget was very helpful and gave me directions that helped me avoid all the construction in Des Moines but didn't take me too far off the beaten path that I would get myself completely lost trying to get to Beth's house. I reached my final destination around 11:15 am. Beth and her Grandma were cleaning the apartment and having fun. I joined in and then finally met the man who has made my Beth the most happiest woman on the face of this planet.
He truly is the man that completes her. I am so happy I constantly feel like I am in a state of weepiness. So anyway, we spent the rest of Saturday, running a few errands and then headed to her Grandma's to do laundry. It was a very nice relaxing time and watching Beth interact with her Grandmother is always a treat.
Okay that's it for tonight, I am exhausted and I have to start early tomorrow with more running around. I am the luckiest person in the world!!!!!
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Time to say good-bye
It is actually now currently my last day as I did not get this posted yesterday like I wanted. We are all going to lunch today at CPK and then I will be heading out. How sad and yet happy I am. Tomorrow morning I leave bright and early for Iowa to spend the week helping my Best Friend Beth with any last minute wedding plans. I am so excited. I haven't seen in her in forever.
I have one day left at my old job and I am very thrilled. Tonight is our company's All-Hands meeting and my last chance to say good-bye to some of the friends I have made over the two years I was employed here. I absolutely look forward to the new opportunities coming my way and the very clear career change and career choice I have made. The hardest part though is always saying good-bye.
I know that this won't be the last time I see many of these folks because they are my friends and we always have happy hours, birthdays, weekend treks to the park and so on. It will be different though going to a new place where I don't know anyone at all and will not really get the chance to know too many people.
It's funny how distinct changes in your lifestyle and life path make you stop and think. What have I really done and learned over these past two years? How have these two years shaped who I am today? What will I take with me that will always be remember as being what Touchstone imprinted into my core? Is this where I expected to be?
I have one day left at my old job and I am very thrilled. Tonight is our company's All-Hands meeting and my last chance to say good-bye to some of the friends I have made over the two years I was employed here. I absolutely look forward to the new opportunities coming my way and the very clear career change and career choice I have made. The hardest part though is always saying good-bye.
I know that this won't be the last time I see many of these folks because they are my friends and we always have happy hours, birthdays, weekend treks to the park and so on. It will be different though going to a new place where I don't know anyone at all and will not really get the chance to know too many people.
It's funny how distinct changes in your lifestyle and life path make you stop and think. What have I really done and learned over these past two years? How have these two years shaped who I am today? What will I take with me that will always be remember as being what Touchstone imprinted into my core? Is this where I expected to be?
Thursday, July 13, 2006
aaarrrggghhhh
Okay so on a note that isn't so "happy", I am very frustrated, annoyed, angry and tired. I am ready to quit school, because I just no longer have the energy it takes to go home from work each night and know that my work is not yet done. I am frustrated that I don't have a life. I am frustrated with other things going on in my life and some people in my life who just won't step up!! Why??!?!?!?!? I am frustrated and annoyed with mixed signals and my ignorance. I am angry that I can't seem to get control of my life and make it go the direction I want it to. I know, I know, I don't control my life, GOD does. But I wish He would let me try to control a little bit of it.
And right now I am angry at Him for what he is doing to one of my best friends. She has been through so much s*@t this past year and yet He still keeps piling it on. She has lost 4 relatives in one years time and unfortunately is preparing to lose yet another. She has had to deal with a lot crap regarding an accident and an anal, ornery, money grubbing old man. She studies her rear off for school but yet can't seem to get where she wants to be. I love her and really hate seeing Him create more and more reasons in her life for her to not believe in Him. I wish He would just give her a break. BACK OFF FOR A WHILE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!! LEAVE HER ALONE!!!!!
*aside* of course this could also be a ploy by Satan cause he knows i am getting my life back on track and really working to solidify my personal relationship with God. he could be doing this because he knows how much I care about my friends and hate to see them suffering and knows if he pushes hard enough maybe I will cave. well all I have to say is GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN!!!! You are the @$$hole of all @$$holes and one day you will burn forever!!!!!!!!!!! Leave me and my friends alone cause what your doing won't work!!!! I will continue to trust that God is doing the right thing and will see Himself glorified through all this. However if this is the case I apologize deeply to my best friend that she is the one bearing the brunt of Satans ploy to get me. I really really really am sorry. I TRULY LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW I WOULD NEVER WISH THIS UPON ANYONE ESPECIALLY YOU!!!!
*DISCLAIMER* not everything sucks. I have a great new job, a great new apartment, a great new roommate, a great church with great friends and a great weekend job at a cafe. *END DISCLAIMER*
And right now I am angry at Him for what he is doing to one of my best friends. She has been through so much s*@t this past year and yet He still keeps piling it on. She has lost 4 relatives in one years time and unfortunately is preparing to lose yet another. She has had to deal with a lot crap regarding an accident and an anal, ornery, money grubbing old man. She studies her rear off for school but yet can't seem to get where she wants to be. I love her and really hate seeing Him create more and more reasons in her life for her to not believe in Him. I wish He would just give her a break. BACK OFF FOR A WHILE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!! LEAVE HER ALONE!!!!!
*aside* of course this could also be a ploy by Satan cause he knows i am getting my life back on track and really working to solidify my personal relationship with God. he could be doing this because he knows how much I care about my friends and hate to see them suffering and knows if he pushes hard enough maybe I will cave. well all I have to say is GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN!!!! You are the @$$hole of all @$$holes and one day you will burn forever!!!!!!!!!!! Leave me and my friends alone cause what your doing won't work!!!! I will continue to trust that God is doing the right thing and will see Himself glorified through all this. However if this is the case I apologize deeply to my best friend that she is the one bearing the brunt of Satans ploy to get me. I really really really am sorry. I TRULY LOVE YOU AND YOU KNOW I WOULD NEVER WISH THIS UPON ANYONE ESPECIALLY YOU!!!!
*DISCLAIMER* not everything sucks. I have a great new job, a great new apartment, a great new roommate, a great church with great friends and a great weekend job at a cafe. *END DISCLAIMER*
Celtic FC
So last night was a pretty awesome night! A friend had asked my roommate and I if we wanted to attend a DC United match. For those of you who don't know DC United is the DC professional soccer team. Anyway, I jumped at the chance to see a professional soccer match live as I had just spend weeks watching the World Cup and was totally not ready for soccer to be "over".
So half way through the day yesterday I figured I should find out who DC was playing and to my utter amazement and absolute pleasure I found that we were playing Celtic FC the premiere Scottish football club team. I WAS THRILLED! to say none the least. I love Soccer and I love SCOTLAND!! What better way to end the day than to attend a Soccer match where we play a Scottish team.
So I went home put on my green and white for the Celtic FC and grabbed my Scottish St. Andrew's cross flag and my umbrella of the same. I headed to the match and met up with my friends. It was good times had by all. Celtic FC let me down and lost 4-0, but just being at a live soccer match and knowing the team was from Scotland made everything okay. I had a great time hanging out with my friends.
So half way through the day yesterday I figured I should find out who DC was playing and to my utter amazement and absolute pleasure I found that we were playing Celtic FC the premiere Scottish football club team. I WAS THRILLED! to say none the least. I love Soccer and I love SCOTLAND!! What better way to end the day than to attend a Soccer match where we play a Scottish team.
So I went home put on my green and white for the Celtic FC and grabbed my Scottish St. Andrew's cross flag and my umbrella of the same. I headed to the match and met up with my friends. It was good times had by all. Celtic FC let me down and lost 4-0, but just being at a live soccer match and knowing the team was from Scotland made everything okay. I had a great time hanging out with my friends.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
a little freaked out...
So I did something today that I have never done before. I turned in a two week notice/letter of resignation. Even though I know that I have another better position waiting for me it is still really freaky thing to do. I realized that I can no longer, well I don't know, I just feel kinda in limbo.
I am extremely excited about my new position yet daunted by the fact that I will be working at the Pentagon. It is a very scary thing if you think about it too much, which is what I am doing. The exciting thing though is that I am filling a brand new role that the client asked for and thus I will get to define the role for any future fillers. I will have to turn down or boot out higher ups in favor of even higher uppers than them. (Yeah so if my employers could read this they would be scared. I am supposed to write e-mails with good grammar and this obviously isn't :-). Oh well this is my personal thought page, it is not a complete reflection on my organized life outside of my disorganized thoughts!)
On another note, I am finally into my new place in NE DC. I have a great roommate, a nice place and painted walls!!!! I am so excited about that because now I know I won't have to suffer through my winter depression. One wall is a salmony red, the other is a muted burnt orange and the last is a goldeny yellow. They match my comforter! I have two very large windows on the red wall and a walk in closet. There are a lot of boxes still around as we work to unpack and set up house. It is fun though, we finished the kitchen unpacking last night so all we have left to do in there is paint. We are painting it a teal blue with bright green stripes. Then the bathroom will be orange with a red glaze, kind of like a red gerbera. Our living room is going to have one wall that is squares of blue, green and sheet copper and the rest of the walls will be khaki.
I am pretty sure that my roommate Hyla and I will get along great, though the football season may be a little intense. See she is a die-hard Steelers fan and I am a DIE-HARD Patriots fan. That could make for some interesting games, I guess the good thing is that we aren't playing each other in the regular season this year. Any way more later. I am looking forward to this new living experience as I know it will be 100 x's better than any of my past ones.
I am extremely excited about my new position yet daunted by the fact that I will be working at the Pentagon. It is a very scary thing if you think about it too much, which is what I am doing. The exciting thing though is that I am filling a brand new role that the client asked for and thus I will get to define the role for any future fillers. I will have to turn down or boot out higher ups in favor of even higher uppers than them. (Yeah so if my employers could read this they would be scared. I am supposed to write e-mails with good grammar and this obviously isn't :-). Oh well this is my personal thought page, it is not a complete reflection on my organized life outside of my disorganized thoughts!)
On another note, I am finally into my new place in NE DC. I have a great roommate, a nice place and painted walls!!!! I am so excited about that because now I know I won't have to suffer through my winter depression. One wall is a salmony red, the other is a muted burnt orange and the last is a goldeny yellow. They match my comforter! I have two very large windows on the red wall and a walk in closet. There are a lot of boxes still around as we work to unpack and set up house. It is fun though, we finished the kitchen unpacking last night so all we have left to do in there is paint. We are painting it a teal blue with bright green stripes. Then the bathroom will be orange with a red glaze, kind of like a red gerbera. Our living room is going to have one wall that is squares of blue, green and sheet copper and the rest of the walls will be khaki.
I am pretty sure that my roommate Hyla and I will get along great, though the football season may be a little intense. See she is a die-hard Steelers fan and I am a DIE-HARD Patriots fan. That could make for some interesting games, I guess the good thing is that we aren't playing each other in the regular season this year. Any way more later. I am looking forward to this new living experience as I know it will be 100 x's better than any of my past ones.
Friday, July 07, 2006
I GOT IT!!!!
I GOT THE JOB, I GOT THE JOB!!!! I start July 31st as the Conference Room Scheduler/Administrative Assistant for the Under Secretary of Defense Office of Policy at the PENTAGON!!! I am so thrilled and excited beyond anything I could possibly imagine
This will be a great opportunity to grow and be stretched in ways that are just not possible where I am now. Plus the pay is WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY better!!!
THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!!!!!
This will be a great opportunity to grow and be stretched in ways that are just not possible where I am now. Plus the pay is WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY better!!!
THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
"Officially" twenty-six
I am "officially" twenty-six years of age now. It's weird, you know, you spend so much time focusing on the actual number but when I think about it, I don't really feel 26 years old. I sometimes still feel like I am just graduated from college and freaking out about being a part of the real world. It's funny how some things never change. I look at my life and wonder how I got where I am not? How did I end up in Washington, DC with a great church, a great group of friends, a semi-wonderful job and living on my own? That is the exact opposite of how I had always imagined my life would be. I had always dreamed that I would graduate from college, get married and probably already have a kid by now. Now I can't even begin to imagine being a mom already. Now that isn't to say I couldn't imagine being married or that I wouldn't be more than willing to leave this all behind to start a family but...well I am definitely not where I thought I would be.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Knocked it out of the park....
HOMERUN FOLKS!!!!!!!! I knocked that interview so far out of the park, noone else even stands a chance. I really think it's mine!!! I will hear for sure Monday or Tuesday. Will be sure to let everyone know!!! Thank you so much for all your prayers and thoughts!!! I couldn't have done it without you.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
News, News, News!!!!
I am so excited!!! I have an interview tomorrow afternoon for a job I really want. It would be as a Conference Room Scheduler and Administrative Assistant. I would be working for a company that is contracted to perform services for the Secretary of Defense. I would get the amazing opportunity to work at the Pentagon. I am very excited about the position. The pay is good and the job is right up my alley. Besides what small-town Pennsylvania girl wouldn't want to work at the Pentagon for the Office of the Secretary of Defense. SAWEET!!!!!
So please keep me in your prayers tomorrow. I am a bit nervous and it will be a busy and long day.
My schedule for tomorrow.
5:15am wake-up
6:15am leave the house
6:50am arrive at work
7:00am Starbucks for my morning wake-up call
7:10am Run copies for the 8am meeting
7:30am set up breakfast and room for 8am meeting
8am attend meeting until 10am
10am Brown Bag coordination and planning
11am PowerPoint planning for "generation gap"
12pm meet with HR Director
12:30pm leave for interview
1pm Interview
2:30 return from interview
3pm plan for next day's offerings
4pm plan for gameboard offering
5:30pm leave for softball game on the mall
6:30pm softball on the mall
8pm leave to get bridesmaid gown
9:45pm finally get home
10pm homework
11:30pm SLEEP
Long day but over all, by the time it's done it will have been a productive day. The only bad thing is that my Bible study group that meets Thursday mornings starts the same time that I have to already be at work. I am disappointed because we were going to be covering Journaling as a way to grow in your relationship with God.
On a good note though, my birthday is in 5 days!!! I will be 26 on the 26th!!!!!! I can't wait. A group of friends are getting together at a local restaurant for burgers and beer and then on Thursday we are going to my favorite restaurant for live Jazz and great food.
So please keep me in your prayers tomorrow. I am a bit nervous and it will be a busy and long day.
My schedule for tomorrow.
5:15am wake-up
6:15am leave the house
6:50am arrive at work
7:00am Starbucks for my morning wake-up call
7:10am Run copies for the 8am meeting
7:30am set up breakfast and room for 8am meeting
8am attend meeting until 10am
10am Brown Bag coordination and planning
11am PowerPoint planning for "generation gap"
12pm meet with HR Director
12:30pm leave for interview
1pm Interview
2:30 return from interview
3pm plan for next day's offerings
4pm plan for gameboard offering
5:30pm leave for softball game on the mall
6:30pm softball on the mall
8pm leave to get bridesmaid gown
9:45pm finally get home
10pm homework
11:30pm SLEEP
Long day but over all, by the time it's done it will have been a productive day. The only bad thing is that my Bible study group that meets Thursday mornings starts the same time that I have to already be at work. I am disappointed because we were going to be covering Journaling as a way to grow in your relationship with God.
On a good note though, my birthday is in 5 days!!! I will be 26 on the 26th!!!!!! I can't wait. A group of friends are getting together at a local restaurant for burgers and beer and then on Thursday we are going to my favorite restaurant for live Jazz and great food.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
Spiritual Reflections
Matthew 7:7-8
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.
The average child asks 125 questions a day, the average adult, 6. What happened between childhood and adulthood that so jaded us we no longer have the same thirst for knowledge?
We should never lose our curiousity for the Holy. Question everything, eagerly seek to know more about Him. Question constantly the acts of glory and holiness that happen daily around us and in us.
Oliver Wendell Holmes says "A mind stretched by a new idea never returns to its original shape."
As Christians, we daily risk letting our spiritual lives fall into the pre-determined ruts on the road in front of us. We daily struggle with keeping things like prayer, worship, and scripture reading from being heuristic.
Heuristic - something that is rote and takes no thought to complete. It is habitual action. (i.e. tying shoes, typing, and walking.)
Find new ways to get into the Word and get the Word into you.
Psalm 63:1
O God, You are my God; I shall seek You earnestly; my soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
God responds to spiritual desperation, not some routine or huristic bias.
Live like you were to die tomorrow, and learn like you were to live forever. Gandhi
Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.
The average child asks 125 questions a day, the average adult, 6. What happened between childhood and adulthood that so jaded us we no longer have the same thirst for knowledge?
We should never lose our curiousity for the Holy. Question everything, eagerly seek to know more about Him. Question constantly the acts of glory and holiness that happen daily around us and in us.
Oliver Wendell Holmes says "A mind stretched by a new idea never returns to its original shape."
As Christians, we daily risk letting our spiritual lives fall into the pre-determined ruts on the road in front of us. We daily struggle with keeping things like prayer, worship, and scripture reading from being heuristic.
Heuristic - something that is rote and takes no thought to complete. It is habitual action. (i.e. tying shoes, typing, and walking.)
Find new ways to get into the Word and get the Word into you.
Psalm 63:1
O God, You are my God; I shall seek You earnestly; my soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
God responds to spiritual desperation, not some routine or huristic bias.
Live like you were to die tomorrow, and learn like you were to live forever. Gandhi
Thursday, June 15, 2006
You know you're busy when...
You still have two days left in the pay period and all the hours worked on those days go toward overtime.
Sleep is a by-product of your body just shutting down on you.
Your idea of free time is walking to Starbucks for coffee (10mins)
Your day starts at 5am and ends at 12am.
School is the last thing you want to be thinking about, but the first thing you think about.
You sleep, but dream of what you have to do the next day.
Coffee no longer works!
Your desk looks like a hurricane hit it, even after you have cleaned it off.
You spend your time at a MLB game worrying about time for homework and the last two innings working on homework.
Sleep is a by-product of your body just shutting down on you.
Your idea of free time is walking to Starbucks for coffee (10mins)
Your day starts at 5am and ends at 12am.
School is the last thing you want to be thinking about, but the first thing you think about.
You sleep, but dream of what you have to do the next day.
Coffee no longer works!
Your desk looks like a hurricane hit it, even after you have cleaned it off.
You spend your time at a MLB game worrying about time for homework and the last two innings working on homework.
Monday, June 12, 2006
My first design
Well this is the first necklace I have designed with noone particular in mind. I really like it and I think it turned out pretty good. Let me know what you think...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Al-Zarqawi and seven aides DEAD!!!!!
The US finally did it!!!! read here for more information on how they did it!!! Only one cog in the wheel of terrorism but an important cog.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Life
Well it is finally my golden birthday month!! Sometimes I don't know whether or not to be excited about that or not. As of right now, I am trying to get a group of friends to go to dinner on the 26th and then have a b-day happy hour later in the week at my favorite resturaunt on Barracks Row. But...I don't actually want to think about getting any older, I mean I am not THAT old but sometimes I feel like it :-).
There has been a lot going on in my life lately. I have a whole new experience taking place that I have never had before and trying to keep my perspective and focus where it needs to be is getting harder and harder. I keep finding myself wanting to take things into my own hands instead of trusting God to do things His way. Since He did start the whole deal I shouldn't have a problem, but I guess being human, its that whole control aspect.
I have been studying Philippians and been reminded daily that I need to find the joy in every situation as well as reminded that with God as my foundation there is nothing I can't handle. Its funny how you read something all the time while growing up and going to a Bible college but until you are actually ready to be open to what God is saying in His Word it doesn't make any sense to you. I can't tell you how many times I have read Philippians because it is my favorite book but I just never saw it in the same light as I have recently while delving deep into its precious treasures.
I praise God daily that He never let go of me! I praise Him for great friends like Sarah and Beth who constantly push me to be the woman of God I should be. Who constantly encourage me to find my value in my Father, the King. I praise God for my church here in DC. He has blessed me far beyond anything I could have asked and I keep forgetting to see it. I praise God for new friends and a great part-time job that allows me to get to know more and more people. PRAISE THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, THE CREATOR AND SUSTAINER OF THE UNIVERSE!!!
There has been a lot going on in my life lately. I have a whole new experience taking place that I have never had before and trying to keep my perspective and focus where it needs to be is getting harder and harder. I keep finding myself wanting to take things into my own hands instead of trusting God to do things His way. Since He did start the whole deal I shouldn't have a problem, but I guess being human, its that whole control aspect.
I have been studying Philippians and been reminded daily that I need to find the joy in every situation as well as reminded that with God as my foundation there is nothing I can't handle. Its funny how you read something all the time while growing up and going to a Bible college but until you are actually ready to be open to what God is saying in His Word it doesn't make any sense to you. I can't tell you how many times I have read Philippians because it is my favorite book but I just never saw it in the same light as I have recently while delving deep into its precious treasures.
I praise God daily that He never let go of me! I praise Him for great friends like Sarah and Beth who constantly push me to be the woman of God I should be. Who constantly encourage me to find my value in my Father, the King. I praise God for my church here in DC. He has blessed me far beyond anything I could have asked and I keep forgetting to see it. I praise God for new friends and a great part-time job that allows me to get to know more and more people. PRAISE THE LORD GOD ALMIGHTY, THE CREATOR AND SUSTAINER OF THE UNIVERSE!!!
Thursday, June 01, 2006
UPDATE
PRAISE THE LORD!!! Thanks to everyone who prayed it was greatly appreciated and answered.
Okay everything has been worked out in my crazy life of housing situations. I am going to be able to stay in the same place for one more month for the difference between my security deposit and the actual months rent. I also will only have to pay for my part of the untilities as well. This is a massive blessing since I didn't really have a place to go for a month. I had a friend from church offer me a place for two weeks and another friend offer to take my baby for the same amount of time. But GOD takes care of His children and I am going to be okay. I just wish He wouldn't wait until the last second to keep me up to date. :-)
Okay everything has been worked out in my crazy life of housing situations. I am going to be able to stay in the same place for one more month for the difference between my security deposit and the actual months rent. I also will only have to pay for my part of the untilities as well. This is a massive blessing since I didn't really have a place to go for a month. I had a friend from church offer me a place for two weeks and another friend offer to take my baby for the same amount of time. But GOD takes care of His children and I am going to be okay. I just wish He wouldn't wait until the last second to keep me up to date. :-)
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
PLEASE PRAY!!!
I am so frustrated right now!! I just want to cry, scream and/or curl up in a ball and die. Heaven is definitely looking 100 x's better than this hell called earth!!! GOD please take me home!!
Monday, May 22, 2006
4 is good
Four jobs I've had:
1. talent assistant
2. receptionist
3. executive assistant
4. retail associate
Four movies I can watch over and over:
1. Italian Job
2. Pride and Prejudice (Colin Firth)
3. Bourne movies
4. Down with Love
Four places I've lived:
1. Bellefonte
2. Pittsburgh
3. Washington, DC
4. Scranton
Four tv shows I love:
1. All CSI’s
2. Lost
3. Without a Trace
4. NCIS
Four places I've vacationed:
1. Bermuda
2. Florida
3. Gettsyburg
4. Canada
Four of my favorite dishes:
1. Steak and potatoes
2. tacos
3. chicken
4. Seafood
Four sites I visit daily:
1. myspace
2. lavanderandlaughter
3. hotmail
4. waldenu
Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Bermuda
2. Scotland
3. With my best friend in Iowa
4. Anywhere else other then work
1. talent assistant
2. receptionist
3. executive assistant
4. retail associate
Four movies I can watch over and over:
1. Italian Job
2. Pride and Prejudice (Colin Firth)
3. Bourne movies
4. Down with Love
Four places I've lived:
1. Bellefonte
2. Pittsburgh
3. Washington, DC
4. Scranton
Four tv shows I love:
1. All CSI’s
2. Lost
3. Without a Trace
4. NCIS
Four places I've vacationed:
1. Bermuda
2. Florida
3. Gettsyburg
4. Canada
Four of my favorite dishes:
1. Steak and potatoes
2. tacos
3. chicken
4. Seafood
Four sites I visit daily:
1. myspace
2. lavanderandlaughter
3. hotmail
4. waldenu
Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Bermuda
2. Scotland
3. With my best friend in Iowa
4. Anywhere else other then work
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Two Friends
I found this on mySpace today and thought it was great. Enjoy!!
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT.
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE.
THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.
THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH.
THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.
AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE.
THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"
THE OTHER FRIEND REPLIED
"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.
BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.
Mark 11:25-26 And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father who is in heaven forgive your sins
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT.
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE.
THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.
THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH.
THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.
AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE.
THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"
THE OTHER FRIEND REPLIED
"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.
BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.
Mark 11:25-26 And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father who is in heaven forgive your sins
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
My weekend
Man alive! let me just say I traveled over 1000 miles in six days.
So I left at 8pm on Wednesday night and got in around 12am. I was up at 7:30am to get my Fia to the vet and then my mum and I hit up Eat n Park for breakfast. After breakfast we headed to the hairdressers to get my hair trimmed!! I love it, she shaped it and gave me something that will keep it from frizzing but I don't need a bunch of other junk in it either. THen I went next door to Dick's sporting goods and purchased my very first tennis racket. I am so excited to get to play now. Then we went to the PA driver's license center and renewed my license. Then I went home and packed my stuff and was on the road for Scranton by 2:30pm.
On the way to my friends house I actually stopped to pick her husband up from work. We got to their place by 5:30. The next morning we had graduation at BBC. It was great!! I got to see a couple of different people that I almost forgot were graduating and then a few who I didn't even know were graduating. Then after graduation we went back to my friends house and ate a quick lunch and then all of us including the baby went down for a nap. It was so nice. Then my friend thinking we were going to another friends party stopped to pick up a gift for them from her mom's only to find that we had surprised her with her own party. You have no idea how hard it is to surprise my friend. She always knows if something is happening. But we got her and got her good.
I stayed there until about 8:30pm till I got a call from my friend Kerry. We got together at Starbucks and caught up on a lot of lost time. It was so wonderful to get to see her again. It is so weird sometimes to realize that my friends are moms and wives. But anyway, we had a great time. The next morning my friend and I went shopping and then I was on the road by 5:30pm. Okay now this trip is supposed to take 2 1/2 hours I got home at 7:05pm. I will let you do the math :-). Then I met up with my friend Shrig for a quick dinner and a bit of dessert from Dairy Queen. It was really nice to get the chance to see her again. Though it wasn't under the best of circumstances for her. Then while we were at Dairy Queen a friend of mine from Youth Group was there with her family. She and her husband and boys had moved to Grove City two years ago and I hadn't seen them for longer than that. So we caught up quick and exchanged e-mails.
Then I rushed home to pick up my dad for a 9:40pm showing of MI:III. Now I have to say I really enjoyed it. It was almost as good as the first one. The second one stank because there was no good plot, though the action was great. The third one had plot and action. We got home around midnight. And I quickly caught up on all my homework. Then hit the sack by 1:30am.
The next day was Mother's day and my Mum actually had the day off for the first time in 6 years. So my Mum, Dad and Grandmum all went to the resturaunt where my sister works for lunch. Then after that my Mum and I did some quick last minute shopping before heading home to grab a quick nap and then get on the road.
We were headed to my grandfather's because we were told he was having emergency surgery. So we got in there around 9:30pm. The next day we went with him to the hospital and I got to meet up with my old roomie Erin from college. It was great, we went to lunch at this great Italian resturaunt. Then that night we took my grandfather out for dinner.
So I left at 8pm on Wednesday night and got in around 12am. I was up at 7:30am to get my Fia to the vet and then my mum and I hit up Eat n Park for breakfast. After breakfast we headed to the hairdressers to get my hair trimmed!! I love it, she shaped it and gave me something that will keep it from frizzing but I don't need a bunch of other junk in it either. THen I went next door to Dick's sporting goods and purchased my very first tennis racket. I am so excited to get to play now. Then we went to the PA driver's license center and renewed my license. Then I went home and packed my stuff and was on the road for Scranton by 2:30pm.
On the way to my friends house I actually stopped to pick her husband up from work. We got to their place by 5:30. The next morning we had graduation at BBC. It was great!! I got to see a couple of different people that I almost forgot were graduating and then a few who I didn't even know were graduating. Then after graduation we went back to my friends house and ate a quick lunch and then all of us including the baby went down for a nap. It was so nice. Then my friend thinking we were going to another friends party stopped to pick up a gift for them from her mom's only to find that we had surprised her with her own party. You have no idea how hard it is to surprise my friend. She always knows if something is happening. But we got her and got her good.
I stayed there until about 8:30pm till I got a call from my friend Kerry. We got together at Starbucks and caught up on a lot of lost time. It was so wonderful to get to see her again. It is so weird sometimes to realize that my friends are moms and wives. But anyway, we had a great time. The next morning my friend and I went shopping and then I was on the road by 5:30pm. Okay now this trip is supposed to take 2 1/2 hours I got home at 7:05pm. I will let you do the math :-). Then I met up with my friend Shrig for a quick dinner and a bit of dessert from Dairy Queen. It was really nice to get the chance to see her again. Though it wasn't under the best of circumstances for her. Then while we were at Dairy Queen a friend of mine from Youth Group was there with her family. She and her husband and boys had moved to Grove City two years ago and I hadn't seen them for longer than that. So we caught up quick and exchanged e-mails.
Then I rushed home to pick up my dad for a 9:40pm showing of MI:III. Now I have to say I really enjoyed it. It was almost as good as the first one. The second one stank because there was no good plot, though the action was great. The third one had plot and action. We got home around midnight. And I quickly caught up on all my homework. Then hit the sack by 1:30am.
The next day was Mother's day and my Mum actually had the day off for the first time in 6 years. So my Mum, Dad and Grandmum all went to the resturaunt where my sister works for lunch. Then after that my Mum and I did some quick last minute shopping before heading home to grab a quick nap and then get on the road.
We were headed to my grandfather's because we were told he was having emergency surgery. So we got in there around 9:30pm. The next day we went with him to the hospital and I got to meet up with my old roomie Erin from college. It was great, we went to lunch at this great Italian resturaunt. Then that night we took my grandfather out for dinner.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
It worked!!
So anyway I am leaving tonight to go to PA for the weekend. I am headed to my parents first to drop off my kitty to get fixed. Poor baby for her but YAY for me. Now I don't have to listen to her go into heat all the time. Plus she is getting declawed so that will be nice to play with her and not have my hands all scratched up. Then after I drop her off in the morning, I head to the PA DOT to get my drivers license renewed. Then I am going to go get my hair cut and there was something else that I can't think of off the top of my head. Then tomorrow afternoon I am headed to Scranton for my friend Sarah's college graduation the next morning. Then Friday after grad. I am meeting up with a friend from college, I have to pick up pipe tobacco for my dad and then go to a grad party. Finally Saturday I have a little time with Sarah myself and then see the family I used to nanny and then head home to Central PA. When I get there, my dad and I are going to see MI:III. Then the next day is Mum's day and I am going to take her to dinner somewhere and then her and I are going to go see Just My Luck with Chris Pine. Then I have the rest of that day and most of Monday to enjoy with my mum before heading home to DC.
So that is my crazy hectic life for the weekend!!! But I am looking forward to it!!
So that is my crazy hectic life for the weekend!!! But I am looking forward to it!!
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
What a weekend!!!!
So I had a really great weekend!!! On Friday night I got tickets to attend the Marine Barracks Evening Parade. It was so awesome!!! The thing that was even cooler was that as I was walking home from the metro to shower and get dressed for it, there was tons of security all over the place. Now some may not think this is unusual since I live in DC but I live right near the Marine Barracks and had never seen so much security before for any of their other Evening Parade presentations. So I stopped and asked one of the guards what was going on and he said well it's Cinco de Mayo! I was like do I look that stupid?!?!?! I know it isn't that. Well they wouldn't answer so I kept walking. Then I saw a Marine and asked him and he informed me that the President of the United States of America was going to be in attendance for this presentation. I was so pumped because I have lived in this city for two years now and not once seen the President, plus I HAD TICKETS TO ATTEND.
Let me tell you, the parade was the most amazing thing I have seen in a long time. The President's Own Marine Band played as well as the Commandant's Own. And I learned that John Philip Sousa was born not six blocks from where I live now and a block and a half from the Marine Barracks. He actually directed the Marine Band for 15 years! They also had this really awesome Silent Drill Team that worked with rifles that had bayonets attached. They didn't use any words to do what they did and it had to be one of the most amazing things. Besides that spending 2 hours around a bunch of Marines all in their dress blues was like heaven on earth
:-).
However even through all that, the reality of life and what is taking place today in our world came down hard. They announced all the special guests who were in attendance for the evening and their was a couple of Marines from Walter Reed Hospital there. I think I have always taken for granted that my Brother came back from Iraq twice in once peice. These men reminded me of the fact that I could have lost him. These men had bravely fought and sacrificed parts of their bodies. I saw men with missing legs and arms, men who were in traction with metal rods sticking out from all angles of their legs, and then some men who were "lucky" enough to have all their limbs but recovering from injuries that it was obvious they had suffered much to get where they were that day. I took advantage of the fact that as we exited after the Parade, the men where being escorted back to their bus, to stop and thank each and everyone of them. I couldn't keep the tears from my eyes as they each accepted my hand and heard my words. It was such an honour and privilige to be able to thank men who gave so much for us. It makes me so angry when people degrade what they have done and lost for this war.
GOD BLESS THE MEN AND WOMEN OF OUR MILITARY WHO DAILY LAY THEIR LIVES ON THE LINE FOR THE SAKE OF OUR PEACE AND FREEDOM!!!!
Let me tell you, the parade was the most amazing thing I have seen in a long time. The President's Own Marine Band played as well as the Commandant's Own. And I learned that John Philip Sousa was born not six blocks from where I live now and a block and a half from the Marine Barracks. He actually directed the Marine Band for 15 years! They also had this really awesome Silent Drill Team that worked with rifles that had bayonets attached. They didn't use any words to do what they did and it had to be one of the most amazing things. Besides that spending 2 hours around a bunch of Marines all in their dress blues was like heaven on earth
:-).
However even through all that, the reality of life and what is taking place today in our world came down hard. They announced all the special guests who were in attendance for the evening and their was a couple of Marines from Walter Reed Hospital there. I think I have always taken for granted that my Brother came back from Iraq twice in once peice. These men reminded me of the fact that I could have lost him. These men had bravely fought and sacrificed parts of their bodies. I saw men with missing legs and arms, men who were in traction with metal rods sticking out from all angles of their legs, and then some men who were "lucky" enough to have all their limbs but recovering from injuries that it was obvious they had suffered much to get where they were that day. I took advantage of the fact that as we exited after the Parade, the men where being escorted back to their bus, to stop and thank each and everyone of them. I couldn't keep the tears from my eyes as they each accepted my hand and heard my words. It was such an honour and privilige to be able to thank men who gave so much for us. It makes me so angry when people degrade what they have done and lost for this war.
GOD BLESS THE MEN AND WOMEN OF OUR MILITARY WHO DAILY LAY THEIR LIVES ON THE LINE FOR THE SAKE OF OUR PEACE AND FREEDOM!!!!
Friday, May 05, 2006
Just a bit about me. I was thinking I should write down all the things I love, like, dream and want. This isn’t a survey, it’s more for me than it is for anyone else.
I love…
Life
God
Tulips
Gerbera daisies
Daisies
Colors
The smell of coffee
A good movie
My best friend Beth
My best friend Shrig
My best friend Sarah
My kitty Fia
My family
My job at Ebenezers
Espresso
Scotland
Reading
Creating things
Singing
Listening to music
The fifties
The smell of rubber
Silver
Snowflakes
Blue glass
I am proud of…
My grades
My brains
My extensive vocabulary
My library
My family
My iPod
I dream of…
Finding the man of my dreams
Being married
Living in Scotland
Being skinny J
A good life
A happy family
A home in the country
Having a horse
Having a golden retriever
I want…
To move to Scotland
To find the man of my dreams
To pay off all my college debt
To be known as a woman of God
I like…
Cary Grant
Sean Connery
Doris Day
Old movies
Chocolate
Crisp apples
Hot apple cider
Crisp Autumns days with the smell of fallen leaves
Hayrides
A warm furry kitten
A word of praise
A good Celtic band
A warm hug
A cup of hot cocoa with marshmellows
A conversation with a good friend
A cooing baby
A warm smile
Mike’s company
I love…
Life
God
Tulips
Gerbera daisies
Daisies
Colors
The smell of coffee
A good movie
My best friend Beth
My best friend Shrig
My best friend Sarah
My kitty Fia
My family
My job at Ebenezers
Espresso
Scotland
Reading
Creating things
Singing
Listening to music
The fifties
The smell of rubber
Silver
Snowflakes
Blue glass
I am proud of…
My grades
My brains
My extensive vocabulary
My library
My family
My iPod
I dream of…
Finding the man of my dreams
Being married
Living in Scotland
Being skinny J
A good life
A happy family
A home in the country
Having a horse
Having a golden retriever
I want…
To move to Scotland
To find the man of my dreams
To pay off all my college debt
To be known as a woman of God
I like…
Cary Grant
Sean Connery
Doris Day
Old movies
Chocolate
Crisp apples
Hot apple cider
Crisp Autumns days with the smell of fallen leaves
Hayrides
A warm furry kitten
A word of praise
A good Celtic band
A warm hug
A cup of hot cocoa with marshmellows
A conversation with a good friend
A cooing baby
A warm smile
Mike’s company
more about me
I shut others out when I'm depressed: unfortunately yes
I open up to others easily: sometimes too much
I hate more than love: no
I own over 4 rap CDS: no way can’t stand rap
I love Disney Movies: yeah…so?
I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation: nope
I have a job: yes two
I am self conscious: yes
I like to laugh: you better believe it
I smoke a pack a day: no way, I’m allergic
I can't swallow pills: I can but am finding as I get older it gets harder
I eat fast food weekly: never
I've been out of this country: Bermuda and Canada, Scotland this fall
I believe in ghosts: not that I can see them but that the Devil uses them for his purposes yes
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room: you better believe it, I am extremely arachniphobic
I am very ticklish: oh yes
I love white chocolate: no
I bite my nails: nope
I am comfortable with being me: sorta
I play video games: no
Gotten lost in a city: nope
Saw a shooting star: yes
Had a serious Surgery: yeah three of them
I have Kissed a Stranger: nope
Hugged a stranger: don’t know
Been arrested: no
Argued for the fun of it: I don’t think so
Swore at your parents: no
Skipped school: nope
Gotten stitches: heavens yes
Bitten someone: nope
Gotten the chicken pox: yeah
Ridden in a taxi: yep
Been fired: never
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back: most definitely
Stole something from your job: nope
Been married: not yet
Been on a plane: yup
Thrown up within the last two years: probably but can’t remember
Had someone cheat on you: does playing with your heart and leading you on count? Then yes and then he married someone else I knew
Miss someone right now: definitely
Middle name: Suzette
School: Walden University for MBA
Birthday: June 26, 1980
Astrological sign: cancer
Chinese sign: um?
Do you even believe in astrology?: nope
Are your parents still together?: yes
Are you the youngest or oldest? Oldest of three
What size shoes do you wear?: 7 1/2 or 8
What size ring do you wear?: um?
Interests ---
What's your favorite sport?: FOOTBALL
Favorite sports team?: PATRIOTS
Do you play any instruments?: piano, baritone, drums, trumpet
Are you in band?: no
Favorite actor: Sean Connery, Cary Grant
Favorites actress: Reese Witherspoon, Doris Day
Favorite comedian: don’t have one
Favorite band: Mercy Me and Casting Crowns
Random ---
Were you born in the city?: no
Country?: yes
Suburbs?: eh okay
Ever been to Niagra falls?: yes
Ever been to Africa?: no and no desire to go
What's your favorite drink?: water
Do you like to shop?: no
Like video games?: no
Cards?: solitare
Asparagus?: love
Seinfeld?: no
The OC?: no
Ever been to New York?: yes
How long have you had AIM for?: a while
Xanga?: not anymore
Do you like broccoli? yes
Are you a Harry Potter fan? Oh yeah
Lord of the Rings?: yea
Star Wars?: the originals not the new
Do you like Superman or Batman?: superman
Are you a procrastinator? When I don’t have a set deadline
Do you think Paris Hilton is hot?: heavens no
What nationality are you?: mostly Scottish, then German
Are you sure?: yes why aren't you!?
Ever see someone die?: my cat died in my arms does that count?
Been to a funeral?: yes
Ever been a part of a wedding?: yes
Do you have a job? yes
Do you like dairy?: lactose intolerant
Meat?: medium well steak, chicken and turkey
Fruit?: apples
Vegetables?: definitely
Ever been to Sweden? no
Do you always wear a watch? Never, I turn them off
Favorite flavor of ice cream: mint choco chip and rocky road
How do you like your coffee?: prefer espresso but…sugar and cream
Do you get good grades? Oh yeah
Do you want to get married?: YES!!!!!!!
Have kids?: don’t have any and not really sure if I want any yet. I don’t have to decide that yet anyway, I am still “young”
What do you want to be?: an astronaut, a Scottish citizen and a part of the SNP (Scottish Nationalist party)
What's your favorite color?: yellow, red, orange, pink anything bright and happy
Ever been in a cult?: no
Are you Jewish?: no
Do you wear converse? no
Shop at AE: nope
Hollister?: nope
Aero?: nope
Gap?: yeah
Hot Topic?: nope
Banana Republic? nope
How long do you spend putting on make up?: don’t wear it
Do you like Bush?: sure, but not all his decisions
What's the last movie you saw in theatres?: V for Vendetta
What's your favorite genre of movies?: Action, Mystery, Romantic Comedy
Do you wear a lot of jewelry?: no two rings and a necklace, bracelet and earrings if I remember to put them on
What's your favorite holiday?: 4th of July, Independence Day
Ever meet a celebrity?: Peter Gallagher
Ever been to a country concert?: no
What about a classical concert?: no
A rock concert?: no
Do you like to mosh?: no
Are you in a band?: no
Ever see your favorite artist live? Yes, two of them at the same time
Do you drive?: yes
Do you live in one of those huge neighborhoods with a million plastic houses: no
Do you like playing in the snow?: not really
The rain?: I like a nice warm gentle rain
Afraid of lightning or thunder?: I LOVE THEM!
Do you watch the news?: yeah, I live in DC how can you not?
Are you sad this is over?: no
I open up to others easily: sometimes too much
I hate more than love: no
I own over 4 rap CDS: no way can’t stand rap
I love Disney Movies: yeah…so?
I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation: nope
I have a job: yes two
I am self conscious: yes
I like to laugh: you better believe it
I smoke a pack a day: no way, I’m allergic
I can't swallow pills: I can but am finding as I get older it gets harder
I eat fast food weekly: never
I've been out of this country: Bermuda and Canada, Scotland this fall
I believe in ghosts: not that I can see them but that the Devil uses them for his purposes yes
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room: you better believe it, I am extremely arachniphobic
I am very ticklish: oh yes
I love white chocolate: no
I bite my nails: nope
I am comfortable with being me: sorta
I play video games: no
Gotten lost in a city: nope
Saw a shooting star: yes
Had a serious Surgery: yeah three of them
I have Kissed a Stranger: nope
Hugged a stranger: don’t know
Been arrested: no
Argued for the fun of it: I don’t think so
Swore at your parents: no
Skipped school: nope
Gotten stitches: heavens yes
Bitten someone: nope
Gotten the chicken pox: yeah
Ridden in a taxi: yep
Been fired: never
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back: most definitely
Stole something from your job: nope
Been married: not yet
Been on a plane: yup
Thrown up within the last two years: probably but can’t remember
Had someone cheat on you: does playing with your heart and leading you on count? Then yes and then he married someone else I knew
Miss someone right now: definitely
Middle name: Suzette
School: Walden University for MBA
Birthday: June 26, 1980
Astrological sign: cancer
Chinese sign: um?
Do you even believe in astrology?: nope
Are your parents still together?: yes
Are you the youngest or oldest? Oldest of three
What size shoes do you wear?: 7 1/2 or 8
What size ring do you wear?: um?
Interests ---
What's your favorite sport?: FOOTBALL
Favorite sports team?: PATRIOTS
Do you play any instruments?: piano, baritone, drums, trumpet
Are you in band?: no
Favorite actor: Sean Connery, Cary Grant
Favorites actress: Reese Witherspoon, Doris Day
Favorite comedian: don’t have one
Favorite band: Mercy Me and Casting Crowns
Random ---
Were you born in the city?: no
Country?: yes
Suburbs?: eh okay
Ever been to Niagra falls?: yes
Ever been to Africa?: no and no desire to go
What's your favorite drink?: water
Do you like to shop?: no
Like video games?: no
Cards?: solitare
Asparagus?: love
Seinfeld?: no
The OC?: no
Ever been to New York?: yes
How long have you had AIM for?: a while
Xanga?: not anymore
Do you like broccoli? yes
Are you a Harry Potter fan? Oh yeah
Lord of the Rings?: yea
Star Wars?: the originals not the new
Do you like Superman or Batman?: superman
Are you a procrastinator? When I don’t have a set deadline
Do you think Paris Hilton is hot?: heavens no
What nationality are you?: mostly Scottish, then German
Are you sure?: yes why aren't you!?
Ever see someone die?: my cat died in my arms does that count?
Been to a funeral?: yes
Ever been a part of a wedding?: yes
Do you have a job? yes
Do you like dairy?: lactose intolerant
Meat?: medium well steak, chicken and turkey
Fruit?: apples
Vegetables?: definitely
Ever been to Sweden? no
Do you always wear a watch? Never, I turn them off
Favorite flavor of ice cream: mint choco chip and rocky road
How do you like your coffee?: prefer espresso but…sugar and cream
Do you get good grades? Oh yeah
Do you want to get married?: YES!!!!!!!
Have kids?: don’t have any and not really sure if I want any yet. I don’t have to decide that yet anyway, I am still “young”
What do you want to be?: an astronaut, a Scottish citizen and a part of the SNP (Scottish Nationalist party)
What's your favorite color?: yellow, red, orange, pink anything bright and happy
Ever been in a cult?: no
Are you Jewish?: no
Do you wear converse? no
Shop at AE: nope
Hollister?: nope
Aero?: nope
Gap?: yeah
Hot Topic?: nope
Banana Republic? nope
How long do you spend putting on make up?: don’t wear it
Do you like Bush?: sure, but not all his decisions
What's the last movie you saw in theatres?: V for Vendetta
What's your favorite genre of movies?: Action, Mystery, Romantic Comedy
Do you wear a lot of jewelry?: no two rings and a necklace, bracelet and earrings if I remember to put them on
What's your favorite holiday?: 4th of July, Independence Day
Ever meet a celebrity?: Peter Gallagher
Ever been to a country concert?: no
What about a classical concert?: no
A rock concert?: no
Do you like to mosh?: no
Are you in a band?: no
Ever see your favorite artist live? Yes, two of them at the same time
Do you drive?: yes
Do you live in one of those huge neighborhoods with a million plastic houses: no
Do you like playing in the snow?: not really
The rain?: I like a nice warm gentle rain
Afraid of lightning or thunder?: I LOVE THEM!
Do you watch the news?: yeah, I live in DC how can you not?
Are you sad this is over?: no
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
You know sometimes I wonder how God can be so patient and forgiving. Doesn't He ever get tired of me being a selfish brat? I mean I get tired of myself. Yet He still gives me a new day with a new chance to be what He wants me to be. I was thinking about this because I have been really making an effort to surrender myself to Him every morning. So far He continues to keep me in His palm and remind me to do it everyday. Not that by so far He would ever stop, it's more like I would stop. The next step I need to make is to take time every day and get to know Him more through studying His word and heartfelt prayer. I never realized how hard it is to make time everyday. Especially when you are working two jobs, grad school, soccer, softball and trying to have a life. When do I find the time? I thought about doing it in the morning but my alarm already goes off and 5:30 am every morning and there is no way I could get up any early than that and have a productive day. At night I usually get home and do homework, watch tv and try to wind down for the day. I know that this would be the best time to do it, but...
I need to just cut the crap and the excuses and do it. Nothing is more important than getting to know my Father more. How can I live a life that Glorify's Him if I am not even getting to know what it is that He likes and is?
Thank you to all my friends who daily prayer for me and love me know matter what I do or say. Also thank you for your prayers regarding housing. Hyla and I have decided that we are 99.5% sure that I will be moving in, June 1st. I am really excited!!!
I love you Beth and am so stinkin happy that God has blessed you with such a wonderful man!!!!
I need to just cut the crap and the excuses and do it. Nothing is more important than getting to know my Father more. How can I live a life that Glorify's Him if I am not even getting to know what it is that He likes and is?
Thank you to all my friends who daily prayer for me and love me know matter what I do or say. Also thank you for your prayers regarding housing. Hyla and I have decided that we are 99.5% sure that I will be moving in, June 1st. I am really excited!!!
I love you Beth and am so stinkin happy that God has blessed you with such a wonderful man!!!!
Monday, May 01, 2006
Mercy Me
Mercy Me's new CD came out this past week and all I have to say is Praise God for such a wonderful group who brings honor and glory to His name is such a wonderful way. Their words and music serve as a constant reminder and challenge for all who listen to Glorify God and to say no to self.
some of my favorits from this CD are No More No Less, Bring the Rain, So Long Self and Last One Standing.
No More No Less
I'm not trying to hide anything
I wear it on my sleeve
I wear it on my sleeve.
I'm not trying to be something I'm not
This is all I've got
This is all I've got.
I'm not trying to reinvent the wheel
Just trying to be real
Trying to be real.
I'm not trying to say follow me
I'm not the one who leads,
I'm not the one who leads.
Let me introduce myself to you
This is who I am
No more no less
I am just a man who understands
because of You I'm blessed
No more no less.
I'm not trying to prove anything
It's all about the change
It's all about the change
Let me introduce myself to you
This is who I am
No more no less
I am just a man who understands
because of You I'm blessed
No more no less.
I hope you stare just long enough to see
The heart that's beating here inside of me
beyond all of the things you may think you know
I'm just a kid trying to make it home that's it
No more no less
Lord I want to go home
Nothing more nothing less.
So Long Self
Well if I come across a little bit distant
It's just because I am
Things just seem to feel a little bit different
you understand
Believe it or not but life is not apparently
About me anyways
But I have met the One who really is worth
So let me say
So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long self
Stop right there because I know what you're thinking
But no we can't be friends
And even though I know your heart is breaking
This has to end
And come to think of it the blame for all of this
Simply falls on me
For wanting something more in life than all of this
Can't you see
So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong b ut you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long
Don't feel so bad (don't feel so bad)
There'll be better days (there'll be better days)
Don't go away mad (but by all means)
Just go away, go away
So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long
some of my favorits from this CD are No More No Less, Bring the Rain, So Long Self and Last One Standing.
No More No Less
I'm not trying to hide anything
I wear it on my sleeve
I wear it on my sleeve.
I'm not trying to be something I'm not
This is all I've got
This is all I've got.
I'm not trying to reinvent the wheel
Just trying to be real
Trying to be real.
I'm not trying to say follow me
I'm not the one who leads,
I'm not the one who leads.
Let me introduce myself to you
This is who I am
No more no less
I am just a man who understands
because of You I'm blessed
No more no less.
I'm not trying to prove anything
It's all about the change
It's all about the change
Let me introduce myself to you
This is who I am
No more no less
I am just a man who understands
because of You I'm blessed
No more no less.
I hope you stare just long enough to see
The heart that's beating here inside of me
beyond all of the things you may think you know
I'm just a kid trying to make it home that's it
No more no less
Lord I want to go home
Nothing more nothing less.
So Long Self
Well if I come across a little bit distant
It's just because I am
Things just seem to feel a little bit different
you understand
Believe it or not but life is not apparently
About me anyways
But I have met the One who really is worth
So let me say
So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long self
Stop right there because I know what you're thinking
But no we can't be friends
And even though I know your heart is breaking
This has to end
And come to think of it the blame for all of this
Simply falls on me
For wanting something more in life than all of this
Can't you see
So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong b ut you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long
Don't feel so bad (don't feel so bad)
There'll be better days (there'll be better days)
Don't go away mad (but by all means)
Just go away, go away
So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long
Surrender
I am giving You my heart and all that is within
I lay it all down for the sake of You my King
I am giving You my dreams, I am laying down my rights
I am giving up my pride for the promise of new life.
I am singing You this song, I am waiting at the cross,
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss,
For the sake of knowing You, the glory of Your name,
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain.
by: Marc James
God I surrender my heart fully and sincerely. I know that I will wake up everyday and try to take it back, but please remind me that this is what I have said to you.
I surrender my desire to be with someone, and trust that You and You alone are all I need. Trust that you will give me what is best for me and will Glorify You. I trust that you know exactly what I "need" and what I desire and will give them to me at the time and place that is right for You and will bring the most Glory to Your name.
I surrender my desire to grow more and more like you in the hope and trust that You will take that desire and use it for Your Glory by helping me to make time for You every day and to get to know You more.
I surrender my pride and my feelings that You owe me something when I know that You owe me nothing but I owe You everything. I surrender my stubborness and my bitterness. Please help me to make things right with Jason so that I can move and move past and better live my life for You.
I surrender my living situation and the possibility of a new one completely to You. I will trust in You and Your desire to see Your children happy and in a situation to Honor and Glorify You.
I surrender my anger, my jealousy and my impatience. Please take them and make me and mold me into a women after Your own heart and a lamp to the world of Your honor and glory!!!
I lay it all down for the sake of You my King
I am giving You my dreams, I am laying down my rights
I am giving up my pride for the promise of new life.
I am singing You this song, I am waiting at the cross,
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss,
For the sake of knowing You, the glory of Your name,
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain.
by: Marc James
God I surrender my heart fully and sincerely. I know that I will wake up everyday and try to take it back, but please remind me that this is what I have said to you.
I surrender my desire to be with someone, and trust that You and You alone are all I need. Trust that you will give me what is best for me and will Glorify You. I trust that you know exactly what I "need" and what I desire and will give them to me at the time and place that is right for You and will bring the most Glory to Your name.
I surrender my desire to grow more and more like you in the hope and trust that You will take that desire and use it for Your Glory by helping me to make time for You every day and to get to know You more.
I surrender my pride and my feelings that You owe me something when I know that You owe me nothing but I owe You everything. I surrender my stubborness and my bitterness. Please help me to make things right with Jason so that I can move and move past and better live my life for You.
I surrender my living situation and the possibility of a new one completely to You. I will trust in You and Your desire to see Your children happy and in a situation to Honor and Glorify You.
I surrender my anger, my jealousy and my impatience. Please take them and make me and mold me into a women after Your own heart and a lamp to the world of Your honor and glory!!!
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Tennis
Okay so I know that I love watching tennis, especially when it is Andy Roddick playing or Roger Fedderer, however I had never actually picked up a racket in my life. That is until yesterday. There is this Alpha group that I am involved with and we had this really great day away yesterday. We got together at a place other than where we normally meet and talked about the Holy Spirit and enjoyed getting to know each other. So anyway they had tennis courts and there were a couple of extra rackets and balls, so this girl Melissa that I met and I decided to give it a shot. Well I must say I have never felt so inept and out of my league as I did. But I also discovered that I really love tennis not only watching it but trying my hand at playing. I am by no means any good but it is just plain fun. I will however have to make a mental note to wrap my ankles before playing cause all the running around the court you do I rolled them a couple of times. I keep forgetting that I have weak ankles cause I haven't played a sport in so long that required so much stopping and turning on a dime. Oh well, I just need to remember that but I am definitely going to keep playing and learning to play better. I hope to post a couple pics later. It was funny cause I "felt" so professional, I was wearing a skort and when I tucked the balls in the pockets I felt like Maria Sharpanova and Venus Williams. Like that would ever be a reality :-). Any way that was my foray into the tennis world and now I love to play and watch.
Friday, April 28, 2006
stringin me along
I sometimes wonder if God likes to play pranks on His children and string them along. (the rambling thoughts of a desperate woman)
As you all know I am desperately trying to get out of the bad living situation that I am in. I would ultimately prefer to live on my own but if that doesn't work then I would want to live with only one person. I can't handle living with a couple of girls again, what with the hormones, mood swings and many different senses of interior design. I also won't do the guy roommate thing ever again because they are slobs!!!!!!! Sorry to all you unique gentlemen out there who actually clean. (I LUV U BRO!!!)
So anyway...I thought I had kinda found a place with a friend from the Church I attend. However there are some strings that God keeps droppin in the way and I kinda feel like HE likes doing it. So I have a cat because, well you know us single women, (well at least me), I needed some sort of companionship to come home too. So yeah, this place is a great two bedroom apartment near where I work in the evenings and to the red line metro which would put me right at work. It is with a great person who has actually been living alone for some time and isn't sure about the whole roommate thing either and it is decently priced and in an okay neighborhood.
Here's the string though, we aren't "allowed" to have pets. However there are many cats and dogs in the building because the rule is not enforced and as long as the landlord doesn't see anything when you finally leave then they don't say anything.
Well the thing is, do I do the "right" thing and obey the landlord and keep searching or do I do what everyone else has done and just move in anyway and keep Fia clean? I mean she is a clean cat as it is, she knows where her litter box is and hasn't made any messes since I have had her. She is a generally quiet and relaxed cat and when she gets fixed in May she'll be even better.
Why can't God just let me find a place, I mean I am trying to do the right thing in getting my life back on track for Him but... I mean I know He wants us to trust Him and maybe He is testing me, I just wish He wouldn't test me in this area because I am in a terrible situation that I really must get out of.
I just can't win can I!! What would you have me do Lord? I mean I know I just begged you to give me the peace of mind and heart that so many of my friends have found, but is this really the way to do it? Please help me out here... I need out really bad, I can't handle this situation anymore!!!
As you all know I am desperately trying to get out of the bad living situation that I am in. I would ultimately prefer to live on my own but if that doesn't work then I would want to live with only one person. I can't handle living with a couple of girls again, what with the hormones, mood swings and many different senses of interior design. I also won't do the guy roommate thing ever again because they are slobs!!!!!!! Sorry to all you unique gentlemen out there who actually clean. (I LUV U BRO!!!)
So anyway...I thought I had kinda found a place with a friend from the Church I attend. However there are some strings that God keeps droppin in the way and I kinda feel like HE likes doing it. So I have a cat because, well you know us single women, (well at least me), I needed some sort of companionship to come home too. So yeah, this place is a great two bedroom apartment near where I work in the evenings and to the red line metro which would put me right at work. It is with a great person who has actually been living alone for some time and isn't sure about the whole roommate thing either and it is decently priced and in an okay neighborhood.
Here's the string though, we aren't "allowed" to have pets. However there are many cats and dogs in the building because the rule is not enforced and as long as the landlord doesn't see anything when you finally leave then they don't say anything.
Well the thing is, do I do the "right" thing and obey the landlord and keep searching or do I do what everyone else has done and just move in anyway and keep Fia clean? I mean she is a clean cat as it is, she knows where her litter box is and hasn't made any messes since I have had her. She is a generally quiet and relaxed cat and when she gets fixed in May she'll be even better.
Why can't God just let me find a place, I mean I am trying to do the right thing in getting my life back on track for Him but... I mean I know He wants us to trust Him and maybe He is testing me, I just wish He wouldn't test me in this area because I am in a terrible situation that I really must get out of.
I just can't win can I!! What would you have me do Lord? I mean I know I just begged you to give me the peace of mind and heart that so many of my friends have found, but is this really the way to do it? Please help me out here... I need out really bad, I can't handle this situation anymore!!!
Thursday, April 27, 2006
If you have five minutes...
Current mood: stressed
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4:
…uations that everyone accepts as facts, and (2) personal data.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. whats there?
My manager
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Locals on the eights on the weather channel
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
3:00 pm
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
2:33pm
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My head boss talking to her daughter and co-workers typing and Mercy Me
7. When did you last step outside?
1:45pm
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
a friend's myspace
9. What are you wearing?
Black pants, black tank, red silk tank, and black button down sweater
10. Did you dream last night?
No
11. When did you last laugh?
a few minutes ago
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Monthly Calendar, painting of Scotland done for me by a friend, 60 day wall calendar and lots of little post-its of things to do and people to call.
13. Seen anything weird lately?
Not that I can think of at the moment
14. What do you think of this quiz?
A nice quick break from the monotany of work
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Pay off college loans and purchase a 1938 Cheverlot Coupe, my dad an Aston Marin, my Mum a mini coupe and a home in Scotland
17. Tell something about you that most people don't know:
I dream big but never believe that I can achieve them.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics what would it be?
All war
19. Do you like to dance?
Sure, but I’m not great by any standards
20. George Bush:
Not sure what to think of him right now
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Don’t know
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Nathaniel Burton
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Definitely, planning to next year
24. Person you want to see the most right now?
Beth, Sarah and Shriggles
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4:
…uations that everyone accepts as facts, and (2) personal data.
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. whats there?
My manager
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Locals on the eights on the weather channel
4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
3:00 pm
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
2:33pm
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
My head boss talking to her daughter and co-workers typing and Mercy Me
7. When did you last step outside?
1:45pm
8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
a friend's myspace
9. What are you wearing?
Black pants, black tank, red silk tank, and black button down sweater
10. Did you dream last night?
No
11. When did you last laugh?
a few minutes ago
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Monthly Calendar, painting of Scotland done for me by a friend, 60 day wall calendar and lots of little post-its of things to do and people to call.
13. Seen anything weird lately?
Not that I can think of at the moment
14. What do you think of this quiz?
A nice quick break from the monotany of work
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Pay off college loans and purchase a 1938 Cheverlot Coupe, my dad an Aston Marin, my Mum a mini coupe and a home in Scotland
17. Tell something about you that most people don't know:
I dream big but never believe that I can achieve them.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics what would it be?
All war
19. Do you like to dance?
Sure, but I’m not great by any standards
20. George Bush:
Not sure what to think of him right now
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Don’t know
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Nathaniel Burton
23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Definitely, planning to next year
24. Person you want to see the most right now?
Beth, Sarah and Shriggles
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
surveys
1. Worst damage you ever took in a fight?
a bruised knee but my brother broke his hand :-)
2. Most money you ever owed a utility company?
Always pay my bills on time
3. Last time you got kicked out of a bar?
never
4. Longest time you slept in a car?
can’t sleep in a moving vehicle
5. Most terrible nickname you've ever been given?
Well get creative with my last name because I won’t repeat what they were on here. It’s Neiner as in 9er
6. Worst job you ever had?
working as a waitress at a little hole in the wall called Dino and Francesco’s in Clarks Summit, PA
7. Shortest job you've ever had?
data entry temp job for a medical insurance company
8. Longest romantic relationship?
relationship? What relationship?
9. Shortest romantic relationship?
see above
10. Food that you would eat till you puked?
um….
11. Food that even looking at makes you puke?
sauerkraut
12. What music saved your life?
Mercy Me and Casting Crowns
13. Person you miss the most in the world?
my best friends and my Grannie (mum's mom) and Grandpop (dad's dad)
14. Worst movie you've ever seen?
Night of the living dead (have never watched another horror movie in my life.
15. Best movie you've ever seen?
Pride and Prejudice by A&E and BBC
16. Craziest thing you've ever done sober?
hmm, gone skydiving when I was afraid of heights and had never been in a plane before
17. Ever almost die?
nope
18. Ever fist-fight a member of the opposite sex?
nope
19. Best place you have ever lived?
Washington, DC
20. Worst place you have ever lived?
Pittsburg, but not because of the people
21. Bad habit you have had for the longest time?
I always have to say something
22. Noise that makes you want to punch people?
people that smack their gum and scuff their feet
23. Your favorite tattoo?
have none, can’t stand them
24. Least favorite tattoo?
see above
25. At your poorest, were you a ramen noodle or Mac and cheeze?
dry ramen
26. Most money you have ever spent on a single meal?
I don't know, but it probably wasn't much.
27. Best gift you ever got?
Tough to say...
28. Best pet you ever had?
fia and dyani
29. Ever run from the cops?
no
30. Money or health?
um…health
31. Recognition, Raise or Promotion?
RAISE
First thoughts.
Write your first reaction or thoughts
1. I need: money
2. Sex: um yeah
3. Relationships: want one
4. Your Last Ex: um don’t have one
5. Power: control
6. Marijuana: pointless
7. Crack: jump them in the side walk
8. Food: CHEERIOS!!!!
9. This President: would love to meet him
10. War: hate it
11. Cars: 1938 Cheverlot Coupe
12. Gas Prices: over the top
13. Halloween: whatever…
14. Bon Jovi: hotter as the years go by
15. Religion: its about a relationship not a religion
16. MySpace: connection to friends from college
17. Worst Fear: never being what God wants me to be
18. Marriage: someday
19. Fashion: aaa leave it to hollywood
20. Brunette: hotter than blondes J
21. Redhead: nicole kidman
22. RESPECT: definitely
23. Pass the time: reading, sudoku, beading and listening to my iPod
24. Football: GO PATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sept. is coming
25. One night Stands: as if, not likely to happen
26. Pet Peeve: blinkers left on after they turned
27. Pixie Stix: childish candy
28. Vanilla Ice: ice ice baby J
29. PORTA POTTIES: construction zones
30. High school: hated it
31. Pajamas: boxers and tank top
32. Wood: fresh cut smells so good
33. Surfers: blonde
34. Pictures: wish I took more
35. First Love: Samuel Dagger
a bruised knee but my brother broke his hand :-)
2. Most money you ever owed a utility company?
Always pay my bills on time
3. Last time you got kicked out of a bar?
never
4. Longest time you slept in a car?
can’t sleep in a moving vehicle
5. Most terrible nickname you've ever been given?
Well get creative with my last name because I won’t repeat what they were on here. It’s Neiner as in 9er
6. Worst job you ever had?
working as a waitress at a little hole in the wall called Dino and Francesco’s in Clarks Summit, PA
7. Shortest job you've ever had?
data entry temp job for a medical insurance company
8. Longest romantic relationship?
relationship? What relationship?
9. Shortest romantic relationship?
see above
10. Food that you would eat till you puked?
um….
11. Food that even looking at makes you puke?
sauerkraut
12. What music saved your life?
Mercy Me and Casting Crowns
13. Person you miss the most in the world?
my best friends and my Grannie (mum's mom) and Grandpop (dad's dad)
14. Worst movie you've ever seen?
Night of the living dead (have never watched another horror movie in my life.
15. Best movie you've ever seen?
Pride and Prejudice by A&E and BBC
16. Craziest thing you've ever done sober?
hmm, gone skydiving when I was afraid of heights and had never been in a plane before
17. Ever almost die?
nope
18. Ever fist-fight a member of the opposite sex?
nope
19. Best place you have ever lived?
Washington, DC
20. Worst place you have ever lived?
Pittsburg, but not because of the people
21. Bad habit you have had for the longest time?
I always have to say something
22. Noise that makes you want to punch people?
people that smack their gum and scuff their feet
23. Your favorite tattoo?
have none, can’t stand them
24. Least favorite tattoo?
see above
25. At your poorest, were you a ramen noodle or Mac and cheeze?
dry ramen
26. Most money you have ever spent on a single meal?
I don't know, but it probably wasn't much.
27. Best gift you ever got?
Tough to say...
28. Best pet you ever had?
fia and dyani
29. Ever run from the cops?
no
30. Money or health?
um…health
31. Recognition, Raise or Promotion?
RAISE
First thoughts.
Write your first reaction or thoughts
1. I need: money
2. Sex: um yeah
3. Relationships: want one
4. Your Last Ex: um don’t have one
5. Power: control
6. Marijuana: pointless
7. Crack: jump them in the side walk
8. Food: CHEERIOS!!!!
9. This President: would love to meet him
10. War: hate it
11. Cars: 1938 Cheverlot Coupe
12. Gas Prices: over the top
13. Halloween: whatever…
14. Bon Jovi: hotter as the years go by
15. Religion: its about a relationship not a religion
16. MySpace: connection to friends from college
17. Worst Fear: never being what God wants me to be
18. Marriage: someday
19. Fashion: aaa leave it to hollywood
20. Brunette: hotter than blondes J
21. Redhead: nicole kidman
22. RESPECT: definitely
23. Pass the time: reading, sudoku, beading and listening to my iPod
24. Football: GO PATS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sept. is coming
25. One night Stands: as if, not likely to happen
26. Pet Peeve: blinkers left on after they turned
27. Pixie Stix: childish candy
28. Vanilla Ice: ice ice baby J
29. PORTA POTTIES: construction zones
30. High school: hated it
31. Pajamas: boxers and tank top
32. Wood: fresh cut smells so good
33. Surfers: blonde
34. Pictures: wish I took more
35. First Love: Samuel Dagger
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I'm Honest are you?
ANSWER EVERY QUESTION NO LIES!! DONT TAKE IT IF YOU'RE GOING TO LIE!
1.WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX IF YOU COULD?
Never had an ex but if I could get back with the guy I have loved forever then the honest answer would have to be yes as much as I hate to say it.
2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Yello tank top
3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
nope
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP 8?
nope
5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
Most all of them
7. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
Not sure that I ever want to have any. Maybe if I find the right guy I will but for right now I don’t
8. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
Yes, better with my Mum than my dad but I have a good relationship with both.
9. DO YOU MAKE OVER 40K A YEAR?
Nope, not yet
11. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
Well if I were a boy Nathaniel Burton and I don’t think I would pick any other female name because my name is so unique
14. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY?
Well I through myself a barbeque and then we went out with a bunch of friends from work my sister her boyfriend and my brother. It was good times.
15. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
Behind these Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson
16. WHAT TIME DID U WAKE UP?
5:30 AM
17.WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
Homework for grad school
18. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
Don’t have any ex’s
19. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
No!!! I hate it
22. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO...
Find the man of my dreams and go to Scotland this fall and then move there next spring
23. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
Easter weekend she came down to visit me.
24. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS?
Yes, my sis is a good friend and my bro is a great buddy
25. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
Loose the extra 20 pounds I got after graduating and moving into the real world
26. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
Pay off college loans
27. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
1 year and 11 months
28. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
nope
29. LAST PERSON YOU CALLED?
My Mum cause it’s her Birthday!!!
30. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Pears in water and peanuts
31. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
September because it’s fall and FOOTBALL SEASON STARTS!!!!!
32. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
January
33. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
Um I can’t remember the last time I borrowed an article of clothing
35. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
Walden University
36. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
Amber Evans, my bro’s girlfriend
37. LAST PERSON THAT MADE YOU SAD?
Someone whom I care very deeply about
38. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Most definitely
39. FAVORITE TYPE OF DRINK?
Water and skim, decaf white mocha
40. FAVORITE FOOD?
Tacos and steak
41. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Um not really a dessert person
42. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
Nope but will finally get there this fall!!!!! whoohooo
44. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Well if it were Osama or Zarqawi or Hussein I would laugh with glee and do a little dance but otherwise I don’t hate people
45. DO YOU OWN A CAMERA PHONE?
yes
IF YOU ANSWERED ALL THESE HONESTLY REPOST
"I'm honest. Are you?"
1.WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX IF YOU COULD?
Never had an ex but if I could get back with the guy I have loved forever then the honest answer would have to be yes as much as I hate to say it.
2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Yello tank top
3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
nope
4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP 8?
nope
5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
Most all of them
7. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE?
Not sure that I ever want to have any. Maybe if I find the right guy I will but for right now I don’t
8. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS?
Yes, better with my Mum than my dad but I have a good relationship with both.
9. DO YOU MAKE OVER 40K A YEAR?
Nope, not yet
11. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE?
Well if I were a boy Nathaniel Burton and I don’t think I would pick any other female name because my name is so unique
14. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BDAY?
Well I through myself a barbeque and then we went out with a bunch of friends from work my sister her boyfriend and my brother. It was good times.
15. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
Behind these Hazel Eyes by Kelly Clarkson
16. WHAT TIME DID U WAKE UP?
5:30 AM
17.WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO?
Homework for grad school
18. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST?
Don’t have any ex’s
19. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED?
No!!! I hate it
22. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO...
Find the man of my dreams and go to Scotland this fall and then move there next spring
23. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
Easter weekend she came down to visit me.
24. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS?
Yes, my sis is a good friend and my bro is a great buddy
25. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?
Loose the extra 20 pounds I got after graduating and moving into the real world
26. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT?
Pay off college loans
27. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN AT YOUR CURRENT JOB?
1 year and 11 months
28. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM?
nope
29. LAST PERSON YOU CALLED?
My Mum cause it’s her Birthday!!!
30. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Pears in water and peanuts
31. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH?
September because it’s fall and FOOTBALL SEASON STARTS!!!!!
32. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH?
January
33. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM ANYONE?
Um I can’t remember the last time I borrowed an article of clothing
35. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE?
Walden University
36. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED?
Amber Evans, my bro’s girlfriend
37. LAST PERSON THAT MADE YOU SAD?
Someone whom I care very deeply about
38. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Most definitely
39. FAVORITE TYPE OF DRINK?
Water and skim, decaf white mocha
40. FAVORITE FOOD?
Tacos and steak
41. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Um not really a dessert person
42. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE?
Nope but will finally get there this fall!!!!! whoohooo
44. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Well if it were Osama or Zarqawi or Hussein I would laugh with glee and do a little dance but otherwise I don’t hate people
45. DO YOU OWN A CAMERA PHONE?
yes
IF YOU ANSWERED ALL THESE HONESTLY REPOST
"I'm honest. Are you?"
Monday, April 24, 2006
update on a place to live
Okay so my one roommate the one that I actually kind of get along with is moving out this weekend. I am still desperately looking. The last place I told you about is actually a co-op that I can't afford to buy into. I have a couple of other places I am planning to check out but would appreciate any prayer that could be sent up on my behalf to find a place to live.
I am really ready to live on my own and not have any roommates. I don't think I can handle living with people any more :-).
I also just got the new Mercy Me CD in the mail today "Coming up to Breathe" I must say it is excellent. I really love it and them. God has used them in such wondrous ways. Okay thats it for today.
I am really ready to live on my own and not have any roommates. I don't think I can handle living with people any more :-).
I also just got the new Mercy Me CD in the mail today "Coming up to Breathe" I must say it is excellent. I really love it and them. God has used them in such wondrous ways. Okay thats it for today.
Okay GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I am on my knees, I don't know what else to do or how to do it. I just need you to take complete control and just heal me and put me back together. I am begging you, I am so tired of looking to man to fill the emptiness I feel. I want what everyone else has found...peace in You!!! I want it so bad and I am asking you, laying bare my heart to you!! I need you GOD, I need you like the deer needs water, like the earth needs sun, like the baby needs it's mother, like a flower needs the soil. Please take over every part of me and give me that peace. I am not sure how to do it but I just offer myself fully and completely up to YOU!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!! I WANT YOUR PEACE that you so freely offer. I want to be able to rely completely and solely on you. PLEASE I AM BEGGING, if I could get down on my knees in the office I would. I love you and I know that you love me, you show me every day in that you give me breathe and create in me a need for You.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
I might have found a new place to live!!!!!!!
I am really excited because this new place will finally be just mine!! I don't have to share with any roommates. I will have my own dining room, living room and kitchen. I can decorate how I want and clean as often as I want with out people calling me a neat freak!!! Whooppeeeee!!!! Plus I can still have my baby Fia around.
I will know by the end of this week. All my friends out there I would appreciate the prayers that this works. Here is the site that shows some pics and the floorplans for the one bedroom apartments. www.thcapitolhill.com check it out and let me know what you think :-).
Oh and praise God for being a full-time student and employee. I got a great tax return this year that will pay off my Scotland trip and allow me to move! I am so excited, I have my appointment to turn in my passport info on the 4th of May and then it is just sitting and waiting for the day I leave.
I will know by the end of this week. All my friends out there I would appreciate the prayers that this works. Here is the site that shows some pics and the floorplans for the one bedroom apartments. www.thcapitolhill.com check it out and let me know what you think :-).
Oh and praise God for being a full-time student and employee. I got a great tax return this year that will pay off my Scotland trip and allow me to move! I am so excited, I have my appointment to turn in my passport info on the 4th of May and then it is just sitting and waiting for the day I leave.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Just a few examples of why I love Scotland...
The Castles
The Kilts and Bagpipes
Loch NESS!!!!
I don't want to come back. I think I will marry a Scotsman and just stay there forever!! I will finally have found my earthly home before heading to my heavenly home. Whoopeee!!!
Cherry Blossoms!!!!
I love spring and the Cherry Blossoms in DC. I thought i would just share a couple of pictures with everyone so that you could share in the beauty. God Bless!!!
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
In CHRIST alone
In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of hte world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of hte world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Brought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life, no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'Till He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
UPDATE
Okay so many new and some wonderful things have been happening in my life lately. Concerning work...I am actively working towards more responsibility with in my position. I also was approved for my Top Secret security clearance opening doors to work with our DoD group.In regards to financial, I have finally paid off the last of my debt not including college loans. It is such a freeing feeling. I also did my taxes and am getting back quite a large sum due to the fact that I am a full-time student!!! Hooray!!!! This will allow me to pay off my Grandmum for the Scotland trip. That means that I no longer have to stress about working so many hours in order to pay for the trip and earn spending money. Now everything I make will go directly to spending money for Scotland!!!!!!!!!!!!
As it pertains to life...I am attending a Monday night Bible study and a Wednesday night service. I am almost done one full year out of two of Grad School. I have also come to the realization from reading friends blogs and websites that I am the only person who has not followed her dreams. SO....
After tax time next year I am definitely planning to move to Scotland and pursue the life I have always dreamed of. I have so many connections there with family and friends from work who know folks that I shouldn't have a single problem finding a place to live or a job to work. I have also realized that because I have been so unsettled about this that I think that is why God has not allowed anyone to come into my life yet.
I have been reading this great book by John Eldredge called "The Journey of Desire" and it has made me realize that God gives us desire to test us to see if we really trust him enough to step out and follow them through. It has also showed me how prayer is such an important part of our relationships with God. He provides that outlet for talking to Him and sharing with us how He wants to use us. I have to remind myself that He is the One who gives us our every desire and will provide a way for us to see it through.
"Desire gives fervor to prayer. The sould cannot be listless when some great desire fixes and inflames it...Strong desires make strong prayers...The neglect of prayer is the fearful token of dead spiritual desires...There can be no true praying without desire. (E.M. Bounds: Man of Prayers)"
More to come later...
Friday, April 07, 2006
I miss FOOTBALL!!!!
Okay I didn't realize how much I miss watching football and talking football until yesterday. I was checking out my teams site again for the 1000th time to see if I could get any inkling of what was going through their heads to let some of our best players go.
A little while later I got an e-mail from the site letting me know that NFL.com had finally posted the 2006 schedule. The pathetic thing about this is, I immediately went to the site to print my teams schedule to put it on my calendar. As I was putting the games on my schedule I realized I was going to miss two of them when I was in Scotland and I actually was very sad.
I am going to be in the place I have dreamed of going for years and I was still sad that I was going to miss two games!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There is something wrong with me :-). I guess I will have to make sure I get an air card that provides me with internet access while I am there so that I can check the games progress.
The other pathetic thing is that I miss football so much I actually have the draft days on my calendar so that I can watch the draft. I realize that each year as I watch more and more football, I become more and more addicted to the sport. I absolutely love football. I love fall and I live for when I can start watching games again!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
123456....
So someone pointed out to me that today at 1:02:03pm on 04.05.06 we will live through something that will never happen again. In case you missed the number sequence previously written I will write it again. 1:02:03PM, 04.05.06 Enjoy that tidbit of nonsense and have a great day.
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Mr. Darcy
So I have this acquaintance that used to be a friend that reminds me of Mr. Darcy. In 'Pride and Prejudice' Darcy tells Elizabeth that his biggest weakness is that if someone loses his friendship it is lost forever. Thus the pride.
This is where the comparison begins with this friend. I messed up with them a couple of years ago and have been paying for it ever since. Not for lack of trying to fix it that's for sure but...they seem to be informing me with their actions that they don't care for my friendship at all. I mean we aren't talking a light friendship that was ruined we are talking about a friendship where this person knew almost everything there is to know about me. In fact I needed to put them on my security clearance form because they were the only person that I still had "contact" with from the one school that I went to. I jokingly warned them not to make anything up and they said back you should be more worried that I know everything.
Well anyway, I had invited this friend to get together for coffee this weekend and catch up. I figured at our age we could both be "man" enough to move on and try again at this friendship. I ended up leaving a message and telling them about this great little place where I work and that I would be hanging around there this weekend and to give me a call if they were interested in trying to catch up.
I knew for a fact that this person was around for the weekend because I had to pass where they live to get to work and I saw their car outside. Well to say none the least this person doesn't have to guts to be a "man". I mean I am talking didn't even bother to call at all, not even to say no it wouldn't work out. The sad thing is, this person is interning for a leadership role within a church and you would think that someone wanting to be in leadership would know that bitterness or pride are unacceptable.
I am just so frustrated and tired of trying to do the "right" thing. I wouldn't be trying so hard if I didn't miss their friendship and the conversations and wisdom, they have provided in the past, so much.
This is where the comparison begins with this friend. I messed up with them a couple of years ago and have been paying for it ever since. Not for lack of trying to fix it that's for sure but...they seem to be informing me with their actions that they don't care for my friendship at all. I mean we aren't talking a light friendship that was ruined we are talking about a friendship where this person knew almost everything there is to know about me. In fact I needed to put them on my security clearance form because they were the only person that I still had "contact" with from the one school that I went to. I jokingly warned them not to make anything up and they said back you should be more worried that I know everything.
Well anyway, I had invited this friend to get together for coffee this weekend and catch up. I figured at our age we could both be "man" enough to move on and try again at this friendship. I ended up leaving a message and telling them about this great little place where I work and that I would be hanging around there this weekend and to give me a call if they were interested in trying to catch up.
I knew for a fact that this person was around for the weekend because I had to pass where they live to get to work and I saw their car outside. Well to say none the least this person doesn't have to guts to be a "man". I mean I am talking didn't even bother to call at all, not even to say no it wouldn't work out. The sad thing is, this person is interning for a leadership role within a church and you would think that someone wanting to be in leadership would know that bitterness or pride are unacceptable.
I am just so frustrated and tired of trying to do the "right" thing. I wouldn't be trying so hard if I didn't miss their friendship and the conversations and wisdom, they have provided in the past, so much.
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