How big is your God?

We finally finished the last night of our small group going through the book, If You Want to Walk on Water, You have to get out of the Boat. The last chapter discussed how big is our God. It talks about worship and how our lives are to be worship, that what we do on Sunday at church is only a small part of what worship is. I really appreciated this excerpt from the book.

"We are to worship God, not because His ego needs it, but because without worship, our experience and enjoyment of God are not complete. We worship God not so much because He needs it, but because we do.

I need to worship. I need to worship because without it I can forget that I have a Big God beside me and live in fear. I need to worship because without it I can forget his calling and begin to live in a spirit of self-preoccupation. I need to worship because without it I lose a sense of wonder and gratitude and plod through life with blinders on. I need to worship because my natural tendency is toward self-reliance and stubborn independence."

I need to worship because without it I have forgotten Who takes care of me and gives me the will to live each day.

And on the subject of getting out of the boat...I now have a one year plan to get to Scotland by June 1st, 2008. Here is the plan..

DESTINATION SCOTLAND!!! (5/17/2007)

One year plan -- June 1st 2008

Concerns
Books
Degree
$750 for plane ticket
Sarah's baby 10/2007
Janis' Wedding 4/5/08
Getting Fia to Scotland
Storage for all other items
Finding a church
Obtain Ancestry visa
Finding job to pay bills
Save $5,000 for vital living expenses

Solutions
Box and Ship
Start back 6/2007
By August 30th 2007
Enjoy the experience
Enjoy the experience
Purchase cat carrier, and get tranq from vet, research rules and comply
Rent space near folks in PA May 2008
Pray, check out Eikon and other churches in the area
Begin push on May 22nd, and get Grandmum's birth certificate
start search Feb/Mar 08, talk to Walden and the possibility of an internship
Save $500 a month beginning June 07

So I have definitely not been keeping up my end of the cleaning deal in the apartment. Sooo while my roommate was away on vacation this past week I CLEANED the apartment. I cleaned the living room top to bottom, i mean dust and all. Then it was on to the kitchen, where I cleaned out the fridge and mopped the floor. Then swept and wiped down the bathroom. I must say I probably didn't do as thorough a job there because I HATE CLEANING BATHROOMS. However I did clean it a bit.

Last night we had our first good thunderstorm. It made me VERY happy! On the downside though it downpoured and I didn't catch my bedroom window in time and my comforter got soaked. Darn it! But oh well, finally having a thunderstorm was well worth it.

This week will be nuts at work, leading up to a crazy weekend! OY! I am ready for a vacation!!!!!!!!!! Gotta go!

I did it!!

Well I actually got up at 7:30 AM on Saturday morning stretched and ran 2.5 miles all on my own. Then I came back stretched out again and laid down for a nap. Then I met up with my brothers girlfriend and my friend Amber and we headed to the Jeremy M. Herbstritt Memorial 5K. Where we met up with some of their friends. We registered got our t-shirts, stretched and prepared to walk. Lucky for me Michelle one of the other girls was interested in running the 5K as well so we paired off and took off. We ran most all of the race. I would say we ran a good 2.75 miles out of the total 3.2 miles. We stopped and sped walked up the hills, though there weren't many, because neither of us could do it. I finished the race in 38.?? minutes. I was really excited because that is about how long of a run I do at home as well for about the same length of time.

What did I get out of this you ask? Well, I got a chance to pay my respects to his family and come to grips with reality a little bit. I got to help out the family as all proceeds from the race went to Jeremy's family to help with all the finances. I also got the chance to start off my racing/running life in a perfect tribute to a friend. Oh yeah I also got some terrible sunburn on the shoulders and a headache because I didn't drink enough water.

Tomorrow my Mum and I are headed to the graveyard to visit Jeremy and say my goodbyes. My heart is aching right now in ways i can't begin to describe for Mike, Peggy, Jenn, Joe, Steph and Lex. I wish that I could take there pain away and make life all better for them. I wish that I could give them Jeremy back and that I could take his place. Honestly death doesn't scare me. I am ready to go home and be with my Father.

Well until later...

and I'm back.

Sorry its been such a long time. A lot of things have been happening and changing in my life. So where to start...

Lets start with Godspell. We officially closed on Easter Sunday and then celebrated our cast party a week later. We had a ton of fun playing Dance Dance Revolution, eating a lot of food and then Kacey our director passed out fun awards. I received Rookie of the Year! Whoo hoo for me! :-)

With Godspell out of the picture, I had already decided that I would not be going back to work at Ebenezers. I found that I was literally killing myself and no longer finding joy working there. So I now had a lot of time on my hands, so to speak.

Then came Virginia Tech. The world was stunned and the small town of Bellefonte, PA was left in utter shock. This was the 2nd time that an incident effected the small town. The last was when the Pentagon was hit and a young man from Zion, PA was killed. This time not only Bellefonte was effected but myself and others that I knew personally. A young man was murdered in that mess who we had gone to school with. What a mess.

That was a Monday, that Friday I spent the day in Philadelphia with two very good friends, sporting my Virginia Tech Maroon and Orange. We had fun wandering the city, doing some shopping and just having some good girl-time together. Then it was back to DC and work.

I think for the most part that gets me all caught up. Oh yeah I am training for a mini-triathalon in August and the Army Ten-miler in October. Also this weekend I am going home to run in a memorial 5K for Jeremy Herbstritt and to say my good-byes.