Wednesday, May 31, 2006

PLEASE PRAY!!!

I am so frustrated right now!! I just want to cry, scream and/or curl up in a ball and die. Heaven is definitely looking 100 x's better than this hell called earth!!! GOD please take me home!!

Monday, May 22, 2006

4 is good

Four jobs I've had:
1. talent assistant
2. receptionist
3. executive assistant
4. retail associate

Four movies I can watch over and over:
1. Italian Job
2. Pride and Prejudice (Colin Firth)
3. Bourne movies
4. Down with Love

Four places I've lived:
1. Bellefonte
2. Pittsburgh
3. Washington, DC
4. Scranton

Four tv shows I love:
1. All CSI’s
2. Lost
3. Without a Trace
4. NCIS

Four places I've vacationed:
1. Bermuda
2. Florida
3. Gettsyburg
4. Canada

Four of my favorite dishes:
1. Steak and potatoes
2. tacos
3. chicken
4. Seafood

Four sites I visit daily:
1. myspace
2. lavanderandlaughter
3. hotmail
4. waldenu

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Bermuda
2. Scotland
3. With my best friend in Iowa
4. Anywhere else other then work

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Two Friends

I found this on mySpace today and thought it was great. Enjoy!!

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT.
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE.

THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH.
THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE.

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"

THE OTHER FRIEND REPLIED
"WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.

BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT."

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.

Mark 11:25-26 And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father who is in heaven forgive your sins

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

My weekend

Man alive! let me just say I traveled over 1000 miles in six days.

So I left at 8pm on Wednesday night and got in around 12am. I was up at 7:30am to get my Fia to the vet and then my mum and I hit up Eat n Park for breakfast. After breakfast we headed to the hairdressers to get my hair trimmed!! I love it, she shaped it and gave me something that will keep it from frizzing but I don't need a bunch of other junk in it either. THen I went next door to Dick's sporting goods and purchased my very first tennis racket. I am so excited to get to play now. Then we went to the PA driver's license center and renewed my license. Then I went home and packed my stuff and was on the road for Scranton by 2:30pm.

On the way to my friends house I actually stopped to pick her husband up from work. We got to their place by 5:30. The next morning we had graduation at BBC. It was great!! I got to see a couple of different people that I almost forgot were graduating and then a few who I didn't even know were graduating. Then after graduation we went back to my friends house and ate a quick lunch and then all of us including the baby went down for a nap. It was so nice. Then my friend thinking we were going to another friends party stopped to pick up a gift for them from her mom's only to find that we had surprised her with her own party. You have no idea how hard it is to surprise my friend. She always knows if something is happening. But we got her and got her good.

I stayed there until about 8:30pm till I got a call from my friend Kerry. We got together at Starbucks and caught up on a lot of lost time. It was so wonderful to get to see her again. It is so weird sometimes to realize that my friends are moms and wives. But anyway, we had a great time. The next morning my friend and I went shopping and then I was on the road by 5:30pm. Okay now this trip is supposed to take 2 1/2 hours I got home at 7:05pm. I will let you do the math :-). Then I met up with my friend Shrig for a quick dinner and a bit of dessert from Dairy Queen. It was really nice to get the chance to see her again. Though it wasn't under the best of circumstances for her. Then while we were at Dairy Queen a friend of mine from Youth Group was there with her family. She and her husband and boys had moved to Grove City two years ago and I hadn't seen them for longer than that. So we caught up quick and exchanged e-mails.

Then I rushed home to pick up my dad for a 9:40pm showing of MI:III. Now I have to say I really enjoyed it. It was almost as good as the first one. The second one stank because there was no good plot, though the action was great. The third one had plot and action. We got home around midnight. And I quickly caught up on all my homework. Then hit the sack by 1:30am.

The next day was Mother's day and my Mum actually had the day off for the first time in 6 years. So my Mum, Dad and Grandmum all went to the resturaunt where my sister works for lunch. Then after that my Mum and I did some quick last minute shopping before heading home to grab a quick nap and then get on the road.

We were headed to my grandfather's because we were told he was having emergency surgery. So we got in there around 9:30pm. The next day we went with him to the hospital and I got to meet up with my old roomie Erin from college. It was great, we went to lunch at this great Italian resturaunt. Then that night we took my grandfather out for dinner.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

It worked!!

So anyway I am leaving tonight to go to PA for the weekend. I am headed to my parents first to drop off my kitty to get fixed. Poor baby for her but YAY for me. Now I don't have to listen to her go into heat all the time. Plus she is getting declawed so that will be nice to play with her and not have my hands all scratched up. Then after I drop her off in the morning, I head to the PA DOT to get my drivers license renewed. Then I am going to go get my hair cut and there was something else that I can't think of off the top of my head. Then tomorrow afternoon I am headed to Scranton for my friend Sarah's college graduation the next morning. Then Friday after grad. I am meeting up with a friend from college, I have to pick up pipe tobacco for my dad and then go to a grad party. Finally Saturday I have a little time with Sarah myself and then see the family I used to nanny and then head home to Central PA. When I get there, my dad and I are going to see MI:III. Then the next day is Mum's day and I am going to take her to dinner somewhere and then her and I are going to go see Just My Luck with Chris Pine. Then I have the rest of that day and most of Monday to enjoy with my mum before heading home to DC.

So that is my crazy hectic life for the weekend!!! But I am looking forward to it!!

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

OK?!?!

So something is wrong with my site today. I am posting this in hopes that it may correct it.

Monday, May 08, 2006

What a weekend!!!!

So I had a really great weekend!!! On Friday night I got tickets to attend the Marine Barracks Evening Parade. It was so awesome!!! The thing that was even cooler was that as I was walking home from the metro to shower and get dressed for it, there was tons of security all over the place. Now some may not think this is unusual since I live in DC but I live right near the Marine Barracks and had never seen so much security before for any of their other Evening Parade presentations. So I stopped and asked one of the guards what was going on and he said well it's Cinco de Mayo! I was like do I look that stupid?!?!?! I know it isn't that. Well they wouldn't answer so I kept walking. Then I saw a Marine and asked him and he informed me that the President of the United States of America was going to be in attendance for this presentation. I was so pumped because I have lived in this city for two years now and not once seen the President, plus I HAD TICKETS TO ATTEND.

Let me tell you, the parade was the most amazing thing I have seen in a long time. The President's Own Marine Band played as well as the Commandant's Own. And I learned that John Philip Sousa was born not six blocks from where I live now and a block and a half from the Marine Barracks. He actually directed the Marine Band for 15 years! They also had this really awesome Silent Drill Team that worked with rifles that had bayonets attached. They didn't use any words to do what they did and it had to be one of the most amazing things. Besides that spending 2 hours around a bunch of Marines all in their dress blues was like heaven on earth
:-).

However even through all that, the reality of life and what is taking place today in our world came down hard. They announced all the special guests who were in attendance for the evening and their was a couple of Marines from Walter Reed Hospital there. I think I have always taken for granted that my Brother came back from Iraq twice in once peice. These men reminded me of the fact that I could have lost him. These men had bravely fought and sacrificed parts of their bodies. I saw men with missing legs and arms, men who were in traction with metal rods sticking out from all angles of their legs, and then some men who were "lucky" enough to have all their limbs but recovering from injuries that it was obvious they had suffered much to get where they were that day. I took advantage of the fact that as we exited after the Parade, the men where being escorted back to their bus, to stop and thank each and everyone of them. I couldn't keep the tears from my eyes as they each accepted my hand and heard my words. It was such an honour and privilige to be able to thank men who gave so much for us. It makes me so angry when people degrade what they have done and lost for this war.

GOD BLESS THE MEN AND WOMEN OF OUR MILITARY WHO DAILY LAY THEIR LIVES ON THE LINE FOR THE SAKE OF OUR PEACE AND FREEDOM!!!!

Friday, May 05, 2006

Just a bit about me. I was thinking I should write down all the things I love, like, dream and want. This isn’t a survey, it’s more for me than it is for anyone else.

I love…

Life
God
Tulips
Gerbera daisies
Daisies
Colors
The smell of coffee
A good movie
My best friend Beth
My best friend Shrig
My best friend Sarah
My kitty Fia
My family
My job at Ebenezers
Espresso
Scotland
Reading
Creating things
Singing
Listening to music
The fifties
The smell of rubber
Silver
Snowflakes
Blue glass

I am proud of…

My grades
My brains
My extensive vocabulary
My library
My family
My iPod

I dream of…

Finding the man of my dreams
Being married
Living in Scotland
Being skinny J
A good life
A happy family
A home in the country
Having a horse
Having a golden retriever



I want…

To move to Scotland
To find the man of my dreams
To pay off all my college debt
To be known as a woman of God

I like…

Cary Grant
Sean Connery
Doris Day
Old movies
Chocolate
Crisp apples
Hot apple cider
Crisp Autumns days with the smell of fallen leaves
Hayrides
A warm furry kitten
A word of praise
A good Celtic band
A warm hug
A cup of hot cocoa with marshmellows
A conversation with a good friend
A cooing baby
A warm smile
Mike’s company

more about me

I shut others out when I'm depressed: unfortunately yes
I open up to others easily: sometimes too much
I hate more than love: no
I own over 4 rap CDS: no way can’t stand rap
I love Disney Movies: yeah…so?

I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation: nope
I have a job: yes two
I am self conscious: yes
I like to laugh: you better believe it
I smoke a pack a day: no way, I’m allergic
I can't swallow pills: I can but am finding as I get older it gets harder
I eat fast food weekly: never
I've been out of this country: Bermuda and Canada, Scotland this fall
I believe in ghosts: not that I can see them but that the Devil uses them for his purposes yes
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room: you better believe it, I am extremely arachniphobic
I am very ticklish: oh yes
I love white chocolate: no
I bite my nails: nope
I am comfortable with being me: sorta
I play video games: no
Gotten lost in a city: nope
Saw a shooting star: yes
Had a serious Surgery: yeah three of them
I have Kissed a Stranger: nope
Hugged a stranger: don’t know
Been arrested: no
Argued for the fun of it: I don’t think so
Swore at your parents: no
Skipped school: nope
Gotten stitches: heavens yes
Bitten someone: nope
Gotten the chicken pox: yeah
Ridden in a taxi: yep
Been fired: never
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back: most definitely
Stole something from your job: nope
Been married: not yet
Been on a plane: yup
Thrown up within the last two years: probably but can’t remember
Had someone cheat on you: does playing with your heart and leading you on count? Then yes and then he married someone else I knew
Miss someone right now: definitely

Middle name: Suzette
School: Walden University for MBA
Birthday: June 26, 1980
Astrological sign: cancer
Chinese sign: um?
Do you even believe in astrology?: nope
Are your parents still together?: yes
Are you the youngest or oldest? Oldest of three
What size shoes do you wear?: 7 1/2 or 8
What size ring do you wear?: um?

Interests ---

What's your favorite sport?: FOOTBALL
Favorite sports team?: PATRIOTS
Do you play any instruments?: piano, baritone, drums, trumpet
Are you in band?: no
Favorite actor: Sean Connery, Cary Grant
Favorites actress: Reese Witherspoon, Doris Day
Favorite comedian: don’t have one
Favorite band: Mercy Me and Casting Crowns


Random ---


Were you born in the city?: no
Country?: yes
Suburbs?: eh okay
Ever been to Niagra falls?: yes
Ever been to Africa?: no and no desire to go
What's your favorite drink?: water
Do you like to shop?: no
Like video games?: no
Cards?: solitare
Asparagus?: love
Seinfeld?: no
The OC?: no
Ever been to New York?: yes
How long have you had AIM for?: a while
Xanga?: not anymore

Do you like broccoli? yes
Are you a Harry Potter fan? Oh yeah
Lord of the Rings?: yea
Star Wars?: the originals not the new
Do you like Superman or Batman?: superman
Are you a procrastinator? When I don’t have a set deadline
Do you think Paris Hilton is hot?: heavens no
What nationality are you?: mostly Scottish, then German
Are you sure?: yes why aren't you!?
Ever see someone die?: my cat died in my arms does that count?
Been to a funeral?: yes
Ever been a part of a wedding?: yes
Do you have a job? yes
Do you like dairy?: lactose intolerant
Meat?: medium well steak, chicken and turkey
Fruit?: apples
Vegetables?: definitely
Ever been to Sweden? no
Do you always wear a watch? Never, I turn them off
Favorite flavor of ice cream: mint choco chip and rocky road
How do you like your coffee?: prefer espresso but…sugar and cream
Do you get good grades? Oh yeah
Do you want to get married?: YES!!!!!!!
Have kids?: don’t have any and not really sure if I want any yet. I don’t have to decide that yet anyway, I am still “young”
What do you want to be?: an astronaut, a Scottish citizen and a part of the SNP (Scottish Nationalist party)
What's your favorite color?: yellow, red, orange, pink anything bright and happy
Ever been in a cult?: no
Are you Jewish?: no
Do you wear converse? no
Shop at AE: nope
Hollister?: nope
Aero?: nope
Gap?: yeah
Hot Topic?: nope
Banana Republic? nope
How long do you spend putting on make up?: don’t wear it
Do you like Bush?: sure, but not all his decisions
What's the last movie you saw in theatres?: V for Vendetta
What's your favorite genre of movies?: Action, Mystery, Romantic Comedy
Do you wear a lot of jewelry?: no two rings and a necklace, bracelet and earrings if I remember to put them on
What's your favorite holiday?: 4th of July, Independence Day
Ever meet a celebrity?: Peter Gallagher
Ever been to a country concert?: no
What about a classical concert?: no
A rock concert?: no
Do you like to mosh?: no
Are you in a band?: no
Ever see your favorite artist live? Yes, two of them at the same time
Do you drive?: yes
Do you live in one of those huge neighborhoods with a million plastic houses: no
Do you like playing in the snow?: not really
The rain?: I like a nice warm gentle rain
Afraid of lightning or thunder?: I LOVE THEM!
Do you watch the news?: yeah, I live in DC how can you not?
Are you sad this is over?: no

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

You know sometimes I wonder how God can be so patient and forgiving. Doesn't He ever get tired of me being a selfish brat? I mean I get tired of myself. Yet He still gives me a new day with a new chance to be what He wants me to be. I was thinking about this because I have been really making an effort to surrender myself to Him every morning. So far He continues to keep me in His palm and remind me to do it everyday. Not that by so far He would ever stop, it's more like I would stop. The next step I need to make is to take time every day and get to know Him more through studying His word and heartfelt prayer. I never realized how hard it is to make time everyday. Especially when you are working two jobs, grad school, soccer, softball and trying to have a life. When do I find the time? I thought about doing it in the morning but my alarm already goes off and 5:30 am every morning and there is no way I could get up any early than that and have a productive day. At night I usually get home and do homework, watch tv and try to wind down for the day. I know that this would be the best time to do it, but...

I need to just cut the crap and the excuses and do it. Nothing is more important than getting to know my Father more. How can I live a life that Glorify's Him if I am not even getting to know what it is that He likes and is?

Thank you to all my friends who daily prayer for me and love me know matter what I do or say. Also thank you for your prayers regarding housing. Hyla and I have decided that we are 99.5% sure that I will be moving in, June 1st. I am really excited!!!

I love you Beth and am so stinkin happy that God has blessed you with such a wonderful man!!!!

Monday, May 01, 2006

Mercy Me

Mercy Me's new CD came out this past week and all I have to say is Praise God for such a wonderful group who brings honor and glory to His name is such a wonderful way. Their words and music serve as a constant reminder and challenge for all who listen to Glorify God and to say no to self.

some of my favorits from this CD are No More No Less, Bring the Rain, So Long Self and Last One Standing.

No More No Less
I'm not trying to hide anything
I wear it on my sleeve
I wear it on my sleeve.
I'm not trying to be something I'm not
This is all I've got
This is all I've got.
I'm not trying to reinvent the wheel
Just trying to be real
Trying to be real.
I'm not trying to say follow me
I'm not the one who leads,
I'm not the one who leads.

Let me introduce myself to you
This is who I am
No more no less
I am just a man who understands
because of You I'm blessed
No more no less.

I'm not trying to prove anything
It's all about the change
It's all about the change

Let me introduce myself to you
This is who I am
No more no less
I am just a man who understands
because of You I'm blessed
No more no less.

I hope you stare just long enough to see
The heart that's beating here inside of me
beyond all of the things you may think you know
I'm just a kid trying to make it home that's it
No more no less
Lord I want to go home
Nothing more nothing less.

So Long Self

Well if I come across a little bit distant
It's just because I am
Things just seem to feel a little bit different
you understand
Believe it or not but life is not apparently
About me anyways
But I have met the One who really is worth
So let me say

So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long self

Stop right there because I know what you're thinking
But no we can't be friends
And even though I know your heart is breaking
This has to end
And come to think of it the blame for all of this
Simply falls on me
For wanting something more in life than all of this
Can't you see

So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong b ut you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long

Don't feel so bad (don't feel so bad)
There'll be better days (there'll be better days)
Don't go away mad (but by all means)
Just go away, go away

So long self
Well it's been fun, but I have found somebody else
So long self
There's just no room for two
So you are gonna have to move
So long self
Don't take this wrong but you are wrong for me farewell
Oh well, goodbye, don't cry
So long

Surrender

I am giving You my heart and all that is within
I lay it all down for the sake of You my King
I am giving You my dreams, I am laying down my rights
I am giving up my pride for the promise of new life.

I am singing You this song, I am waiting at the cross,
And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss,
For the sake of knowing You, the glory of Your name,
To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain.
by: Marc James

God I surrender my heart fully and sincerely. I know that I will wake up everyday and try to take it back, but please remind me that this is what I have said to you.

I surrender my desire to be with someone, and trust that You and You alone are all I need. Trust that you will give me what is best for me and will Glorify You. I trust that you know exactly what I "need" and what I desire and will give them to me at the time and place that is right for You and will bring the most Glory to Your name.

I surrender my desire to grow more and more like you in the hope and trust that You will take that desire and use it for Your Glory by helping me to make time for You every day and to get to know You more.

I surrender my pride and my feelings that You owe me something when I know that You owe me nothing but I owe You everything. I surrender my stubborness and my bitterness. Please help me to make things right with Jason so that I can move and move past and better live my life for You.

I surrender my living situation and the possibility of a new one completely to You. I will trust in You and Your desire to see Your children happy and in a situation to Honor and Glorify You.

I surrender my anger, my jealousy and my impatience. Please take them and make me and mold me into a women after Your own heart and a lamp to the world of Your honor and glory!!!